~`^The ReBirth...^` ~

Pray

2009-04-04T19:29:00.001+08:00

Dear God, I'm humbled by your blessings on me.
The limitless oppurtunities that you have laid out for me,
Thank you for granting me the strength and tenacity
to hold on during this difficult time.
its just a test to make me stay hungry, driven, and motivated to excel in my business.
In this life I had to struggle to get all that i have,
So there is no way i'm gonna give up just like that.
So I'm going against all odds, and will suceed at all cost.
I have found my calling and my purpose, so allow me to fully utilise the talent u gave me.
The vision and the creativity to make that money.
and let my presence make a difference to the society and the people around me.
Let me represent my people to the fullest. Coz i believe I can make the difference.
But its a dirty game out there, Protect me as i embark on this journey.
to make an honest living to feed my family
and make a fortune to feed my future generations.
So our family will NEVER be broke again.
So guide my business to be as honest as the prophet's
Coz the prophet himself was a businessman
Bless every honest businessman/salesperson who are pitching and hustling out there
And before you burn me in hell for the past sins that i did
i hope u give me the chance to redeem myself with good deeds
Please forgive me and make me a better man.
Amin.

YOU are the constant bad decision in my life

2009-01-30T19:10:00.003+08:00

it is grammatically wrong. but f*ck it. nuff said. Out.

2009: "It's Me Against The World, Bebehhh!" ;)

2009-01-24T16:34:00.015+08:00

"Always do your best, don't let the pressure make you panic
and when you get stranded, and things don't go the way you planned it.
Dreamin of riches, in a position of makin a difference
Politicians and hypocrites, they don't wanna listen"
:- 2Pac 'Me Against The World'

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy ;) Its my first entry for 2009... haha.. its almost the end of the first month, but oh well.. its all good.. its special request by tiz very very preety chick, Ms Sade, she said I should update my blog and so here it is.. lol..

Anyway, Its been almost a year, since i left the Army and School... and i aint going back... i done my time.. life is short, its time to take over the world nowww.. ouh yeaaaaa.... haha.. Looking back, so much have changed in the period of 1 yr.... Moving on, let me run thru briefly the gameplan for 2009....

Partnerwise: let me clear the the air: i'm NOT attached.. haha.. i ended a 4yr plus r'ship last june... I've proven my loyalty and shit and that the world's sweetest boyfriend and shit... so i got nuthing else to prove.. I'm on my ownnn nowww.. just on random dates keeping it on the sideline... no main focus there for now.. keeping it real.... and keeping my options open and no more Ms 'DR' as well... hahaha.. i'll get back to that one later on..

Sportswise: As we all know that i belong to a team of INSANE ppl called The XTREMEAST,.. haha.. We're still doing marathons, races, and adventure races and so on.. We got sum Paintball Tournament coming up... but on personal basis, i'm gonna stop running for now.. tiz yr, i'm not gonna run more than half hour or more than 5km.. Coz running beyond dat, would burn mass.. but i wont mind doing 10km races once in awhile.. coz I'm focusing in building mass now.. Getting the Brad Pitt look in Fight Club.. 6-packs abs, love handles is easy to attain for me, its building the upper body and torso that is my challenge.. So yea that's the focus this yr... but its still XTREMEAST for Life!! ;)

Streetwise: I still got loveeeee for the brothaz..... haha... I'm out in the streets till late.. I'm a Tampines Kid for lifee.. Tampines is my hood fo real.. haha.. U noe the Joints I hang out with, U noe where to find me... Anything, just call ;) i hang out with anybodyyy... i'm keeping close to the streets....

Music wise: I'm contemplating to re-enter the local underground scene again... i disappeared since '04.. but the production and remixes havent been stopping.. I still kept on writing and making my own music as a hobby.. So i got a bit more material now... and now, i'm starting to distinguish my own sound on the mic... shaped up my style and so on.. previously, the lyrics was just raw-ness of wordplay... one of the few things i wanna do is to enrol in keyboard lessons coz in the past, its solely base on my hearing and taste of sound.. and i'm looking at the potential of starting a record label and pushing it across the causewayyy... haha its my dream since waaaay backkkk.... still havent given up hope on that..

Business wise:
- Promotion to AM (by 1st Quarter)
- AFP Designation (by 3rd Quarter)
- Qualify for Convention to Rome (by 4th Quarter)

here i've settled down.. i started seeing ppl falling off from the industry... They left for wateva reason.. sum from the principal i'm representing, sum from other firms.. its all goood... i'm staying rooted to the ground... eversince i came in, its a very steep learning curve coz of the World Economic Recession and its a good thingg... i'm happy with that.. I'm good at what i do and i'm getting better... When it comes to business, my honesty and integrity stands, no compromise.. I've recently got 2 awards... it was a surprise actually, one was for being the 'Top Rookie' for My Cohort of Newbies and the other was for my Advisory Grp's 2nd Runner Up Top Newbie for '08... oh well, its a good boost to my morale, and i'm gunning for my promotion by the end of this quarter.... i'm quite closeee for now.. if i hit it first, next is to bring my G90 guys up... i still believe its a team effort... So for now, as alwayz, focus is still on making money.. all the fun, party, holidays, travelling and wateva can wait.. and i still take pride of hustling for every dollar i make.. nobody said its gonna be easy to be rich... sacrificing short term pleasure for long term gain... objective is still trying to make the First Million before i hit 30 and yet still make a difference to the community and those around me.. datz da very same objective eversince i was 18... aint nuthin changed... and after that, to Takeover the World!!!! hahahha..

I tink that's bout it for nowww... Anyway below are some photos from my Advisory Group AGM @Genting Highlands..

PEACEOUTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

Final Sprint '08

2008-12-17T10:07:00.006+08:00

Hey heyyyyyyy.... Gooooood Morninggggggg!!! hahah... This is one of the rare occasion where i'm doing an entry in the morning... oh well, its all gooood... This week is my final sprint for the year before year-end closing.... After that its going on like tiz:

15-19 Dec: 'Final Sprint'
20-21 Dec: VideoShoot
22-27 Dec: Family Port Dickson/ KL Trip
28-30 Dec: Genting Trip, Group AGM

Mcm hectic ahh... I was putting my eyez on the promotion by end of tiz year, but i was off target by quite abit ahhh.... So i'm like its all good, keep it rolling, 2nd quater next year maybe.. insya allah.. This month was so-so... Wasted time on a couple of stuffs lahh... but its all goood now...

Ops Sneakers was a success, the target was met, the mission was almost compromised.

Ubin Cycling Expedition with my Cuzzins was a blast. Khairi and Me were expedition leaders for the kids, total strength of 16 pax. All went well, no casualties, we were on time, Food and Water supply was sufficient and everything was within the budget.. I'll put up sum pics in awhile.

and Ms 'DR' ..... ohhhhh let's not get me starteddd.. hahaha.. Just talking bout her is making me smileeeee... hahahah.... The thing bout me, i usually take a long time to decide to get serious with a gurl... like case of the ex, it was only after 2mths of going out den i decided.... before that, it took me a couple of mths den i decide to get serious.. Then there was another girl, tho i was crazy over her, i still didnt wanna enter.... coz situation didnt look good for me.. I tend to look at it at every angle, and situation is good, den i'll take the plunge.. But my 'trial period' wont take more than 3 mths lahh.... sum ppl i heard can do it for yearssssss and still nuthing happening... that's indecisiveness, couldnt make up their mind wether they want it on or not... so anywayyy, with DR, after a week and 2 outings, i've decided dat its on..... haha.. sumhow everything is seems so right.. This is by far, the fastest ever.. I put all other dates on hold for now... She gotta be sumtin for me to do datttt... fo real.... Good thing is dat she's working and stuff (I dun date skool gurls), and no 'Emotional Baggage'.... Dun have the 'i-still-cant-forget-my-ex-bf-boo-hoo' syndrome.. ouhhhh, i noe that one tooo damn well.... haha.. so tiz one is clean sheet, so its all good.... and i'm going crazy over her sweetest smileeeeeee and that voluptuos figureeeee (my cup of tea i noe), haha... so yeaa... and yet she's so damn niceee and down-to-earth.. Its like going on with a Diva without the Diva attitude.. yeaa i'm so done with the Diva-attitude/big-ego-gurl-power-bullshit.... now its all bout being real... let's see how this one goess..... i'm now brainstorming on how i wanna seal the deal... Gotta be spectacular... Gotta be different.. haha.. datz meeeeeee.. alriteee, datz all...

Khairi & Me

@ Lunch Point

Going Home

PEace Out!!!!!! =D

The Old Me Dead and Gone Awayyy

2008-12-07T17:40:00.018+08:00

"No Regrets I'm Blessed to say, the Old Me Dead and Gone awayyy"
:- TI ft Justin Timberlake, 'Dead and Gone'

Hey heyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..... Watz goin onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn???? haha... its been awhileee... i been sick the past two weeks... Fluuuu and headachesss... on and off.. irritates the shit out of meeee... kindda affect workkkk and i havent been going to the gym eitherrr... and oh, i had to forgo my race this morninggg.. Singapore MArathon.... I havent fully recoverrr... and i'm suppose to do 21km.... shitttt.... i dun tink i wanna do dat.. i mean, any person who is familiar with TSR regulations will noe dat its a no-no to run in this caseee.. I'm automatically a High Risk person... So i went with the 'Risk Vs Returns' reasoning and decided not to run lahhh.. Didnt wanna take the risk.. i mean i'm not wiling to collapse for tiz shitt... i mean if i collapse for IPPT, its for the $400... so tiz time i decided to burn the 60 bucks and not take the risk lahh... tiz is like the same case back in 2006... We took part in team event in Singapore Marathon 2006.. But i didnt run coz i simply cant run!! haha it was immediately after the Torn ligamenttt incident back in ROC... so yeappp.. its all good... no love lost...

moving forward, yesterday I had my first photoshoot experience. I'm doing tiz side project thing, which requires me to do a lil actingg and stuff... i'm keeping it on the low for now.. i'll talk bout it when the time is right... and sumhow along the way with this project i gotten to noe tiz gurl.... and right now, on this very day i'm gonna openly say dat I'm HAVING A CRUSH ON TIZ GURL!!!! hahaha.. fo real..... and u noe wattttttt, she is a Westside Chick!!! (Like AGAIN?????????) hahahahaha... coz i usually dun publicize bout me having a crush... but tiz time its crazy lahhhh.... but as usual, i dun wannna rush thru anythinggg.... slow and steadyyy.... lets see how it goesss... i'ma call her 'DR' here.. ;)

On another note, the principal that i'm representing seems to be buying over Citigroup Emerging Market assets. They are now Europe's largest bank still and still rocking it hard.. haha.. all across the industry they had to cut down on the manpower and stuff, thankfully my principal seems to be the least affected.. previous quater it announced cutting down 1100 staff worldwide.. so recent months then it came to effect...UK and HK branches are affected... tiz is a considered a very small number compared to other financial institutions... so its all goood... we're still at the top... I was kindda surprised dat Citigroup is in trouble actually... sum prospects i meet, freaked out that my principal is downsizing in other parts of the world coz they see it as trouble.. haha.. if datz da case, den ppl need to draw out all the money in their bank and destroy the ATM cards.. Coz DBS is sure in troubleeee... haha... its all goood.. i'm working it out...

The whole credit crunch and recession came in an important time... I'm kindda glad it happened now.. it speeds up my learning curve... My manager, he been in this industry for 15 years plus... he seen thru 2 major criseis.. the Post-9/11 global recession (SARS was part of the package), the '97 asian economic crisis... so i'm earning my stripes with this crisis... That's why my manager is not panicking with this crisis, he's a veteran... it will pass like the previous ones.. last week i redraw my career plan, things i wanna achieve and put it up on my room... its a 15 year plan kindda thingg... major shittt... and i'm putting up my 'Vision Board' soon, this is coz i was reading up on Law of Attraction and stuff... haha.. yea i do tiz shittt... haha its all good...

and oh, i'm considering of going back to my alma mater to do relief teaching.. I was doing it back in '06 before enlistment.. I tink of going back and do that since i usually got no appointments in the mornings... 65 bucks for half a day till lunch time, den i'll be off for lunch appointment, den back to office clear sum stuff, hit the gym, dinner appointment, den home... sound doable... with that i can make an additional $1300 a mth, dat can cover my monthly liabilities.. so i'm still making money in the morning.... give it a one month trial... and see how it goes... once my monthly renewals dat i'm drawing is where i am comfortable at, den i can shut down the teaching part and spend my mornings either in bed or in meetings... Next step, gotta touch base with my alma mater... pay a visit when school reopens in Jan, den assess the situation... i already re-registered my name on MOE database..

and FTT is on Jan 14, 2009 ;)

'X3 Holdings'.... hmmmm i tink dat shit sounds goood... (affiliations to Team XTREMEAST, XTREMEAST Adventure, XTREMIX Music, XTR...... ..... blah blah blah..... hmmmm.... shhhhhh...) haha..

shittt... i keep looking at DR's pic in my phone... DAMN!!! TIZ IS SOO SEC SKOOL!!! hahah... i'm too old for tiz shittt..... k tiz seem like a serious caseee.... haha.. kk i'm out.. tiz is one looooong entryyy... oh before i forgot,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all Muslims Worldwideeeee ;)

Peace. One Love.

Zek bought me this ancient Greek Hoplite helmet. Gladiator Style.. I tink its Athena's Helmet. It sure look like hers, haha.. one of the coolest shit dat i have right now.. anyway Thanks Zek!!! ;)

I'm The Bomb =p

2008-11-09T20:11:00.010+08:00

Its been a couple of weeks since my last entry, oh well... its all good... I'm doing ok.. I'm actually happy... let's talk bout the whole love life aspect... I reached a point where I no longer need any form validation to my ability as a boyfriend or being single... Previously, eversince the split, i been going hard for dates and hook ups.. Maybe it was a way to convince myself that it was her loss.. Or maybe it was just to tell myself that i still have the touch after a 4 yrs break.... Now I no longer need that validation... I got nuthin to prove now.. I'm cool on my own... i dun need a gf or hook ups to feel complete... I reached dat point where i'm happy... Now, if i tink the lady is a waste of time i filter her out... No losss... anyway, she probably have done the same for me as well.. so yeaaa.... but the thing bout me, i still keep real... wateva i do or say, its from the bottom of my heart.. Still staying true to myself... Sincerity is still the utmost important... When i say sumtin, i mean it... Still speaking my mind out.. I'm just expressive by nature.. So dun question my authenticity.... Still Real to the Core~~

"Reality is that you can survive without a gurl, its without money dat u cannot survive in this world" .. haha.. dat line was from a song i wrote many years back... Now focusing my energy on work.. Strengthening my career fundamentals.. I'm now chasing to hit my production target for my promotion to AM before year end. Its kindda crazy coz i'm a new player but i'm trying to hit the target for AM role... I already seen other new ones fallout.... now i'm like on my own race to hit management role in less than 2 yrs time.. I got all my shit mapped out.. Direction set.. So yeaaaa just gotta keep on hustling.. closing deals and so on ;)

Anyway i'm in the middle of negotiations with a design firm regarding the new batch of XTREMEAST jerseys.... Sum confusion initially, we'll see how it goes... Still trying to work out the best deal for both parites.. Its a win-win situation.. We making jerseys and Stickers this time ard.... yeaps..

And oh, recently i been trying out coloured contact lenses uh... haha... i did a general verbal survey, sum ladiez are ok with it, sum find it a turn off.. oh well, i got nuthing to lose so i'm trying it outt.. lol.. current colour is grey... haha.. and guess wat, i have never been a gym dude, i do runs and swims but not gym.. now me and my G90 clique has signed up for Cali Fitness... lol... We were tough on it.. Negotiated the package, give one objection after another so it would suit us... finally after we tink we got a good deal den we signed the dotted line lahh.. so i been trying out all these gym stuff, den going to the sauna and steam room den da shower, den go for appointments.. haha.. mcm paham.. but its all goood...

I tink datz bout it.. its all good.. oh here's sum pictures taken recently...

Me and Grandpa.... Now u noe where I got style frommm.. hahaha...

The 'Superstar'.. haha

Siblings @ Pasir Ris Park...

ok PEace Outttttttttt!! One Love!! ;)

PS: I'm suppose to talk bout the different styles of thinking.. oh well, we'll get back to that one later on ;)

Bubble Week/ G90 'Board of Directors'

2008-10-25T10:45:00.009+08:00

Hey watz going on people.... I'm like damn sleepy today and its a saturday.. alrite, let's see watz happening for the past 2 weeks.. hmmm.. Last week was so-so... oh, last week was 'bubble week'.. i got 'bubbled' for a couple of business appointments as well as social appointments.. like damn.. kindda sucky last week come to think bout it.. but its all good.. haha.. and so, on sunday, I wanted to shop for sum stuff and got no partner, and i dun wanna waste time with 'bubble dates', i end up going with Ky.. Her bf is not entertaining her and stuff (as usual Farhan, girls and their lousy bfs) haha.. She isnt the most fantastic gurlfren ard, but all these years, she almost never cancel an outing with me... a collegue of mine said "Ex-Gfs will alwayz look better after they become THE Ex-Gf".... haha.. so yea.. Wanted to check out the sale at Ngee Ann City, ended up buying sum shirts and pants at G2.. Had a weird experience, I didnt close the changing room door when i tried my shirts and all that (i noe its my fault).. Then there was this dude who was staring at me from the cubicle across, didnt realise he was gay until later on i saw him with his gay partner.. haha.. no wonder!. haha... anyway, shopping wise, it was good deal with 45% off, bought Timberland boots at the sale, Ky was the shopping partner.. so its all gooood, had dinner, caught a movie, sent her back and yeaa that was the end of last week..

This week been good, closed a few cases... Having fun at work with my new G90 'Board of Directors' Clique.. They rock my socks! haha.. i actually have fun at work.. most of them are more experienced den i am... we had a discussion bout what we plan to do in the long run and stuff.. I feel good about it, coz i can see the direction we heading as a team.. we did our mini business planning, vision and value proposition.. we start seeing ourselves as our own 'board of directors' coz that's the direction we going.. so yeaa its a big picture now.. that's the shit i'm looking for.. so its a blessing.. ;) i guess datz why i took the self-employed route coz i can never make it or be satisfied working as an employee... not dat i didnt try, i did... but it didnt satisfy my need of wanting to 'Run my own show, so give me space'..

I was reading this book recommended by 2 friends.. titled 'The Art of Thinking', its a good book coz if provide the insights on the 5 styles of thinking...diff ppl have diff type of thinking, so which type are u? its like a personality test for the brain.. lol.. it has Synthesis, Idealist, Pragmatist, Analyst, and Realist.. After doing the questionaire and all, I was a Pragmatic-Realist.. i was inclined to that style.. i read up on that stuff and its damn true!!! haha.. Ok, i will get back to that in my next entry.. ;)

Eid Mubarak

2008-10-01T09:42:00.005+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfirtri. Maaf Zahir dan Batin. Enjoy your day with your love ones! =D

It has been a fruitful Ramadhan tiz yr. After a couple of years, I finally managed to stay clean through out the holy month. God Bless.

On a different note, I finally back in the dating scene I guess on a proper scale. I browsed back to my first few friendster testimonials back in '04. Haha.. its those testimonials that got me a gf i guess.. lol.. Coz I got ladiez and brothers vouching for me dat i'm a Ladiez Man, etc etc etc... haha.. i laughed when i look back at it. But its a good way to boost up your self-esteem up again. Anyway I'm back now.. Its a Free Market, i'm just gonna be me. Like it stay, if u dun, then leave. Simple as that.

October, I shall be reeling the money in. Gonna be back on my feet and in the streets hustlin'. Gonna be rocking tiz month. The US Financial Sector is having serious trouble now. Unit prices are down, as in rockbottom down. Thus a fantastic time to start investing. Sumhow i feel proud to be in the midst of this historical crisis. I'm like following the news updates by the hours. And oh, if u happen to have a life policy with AIA, do not surrender our policy. For Real. You will lose out if u do coz your plan might not have break even yet. Do not worry, SG is regulated strictly by the Monetary Authority. Even if the company winds down, should sumtin happens, you will still be paid your sum assured. That is called reinsurance at corporate level. So its all good. You may wanna have review your investment plans though. But all this events are giving me a solid angling point. And proves the stability of the principal i'm currently representing despite the difficult time. So its all good. Let's hope US does sumtin right.

Ok enough of serious stuff, its Hari Raya for god sake. haha. alrite den have a nice day. Peace!

The (old) Creed

2008-09-26T02:08:00.009+08:00

(the few lines dat leaves an impact in you forever)

I will be loyal to the Corps, My Unit, My Country,..... etc etc

My Rank is an opportunity to serve others...... etc... etc...
NO TASK IS TOO LOWLY FOR ME.

LEADERSHIP IS A PRIVILEGE NOT A BIRTHRIGHT.

I will NOT ABUSE MY POWER or BOOST MY EGO at the expense of others...

etc... etc etc....

MY CADETS FIRST ALWAYZ, MYSELF LAST ALWAYZ....

etc etc etc....

I may not be faced with favourable situations, but i will persevere and serve to be of the best of my ability
BECAUSE I CAN MAKE THE DIFFERENCE!!!

~~~~~~~~~~
haha.. those were the good old dayz.. all about honour, earning respect and making the difference... minus the show off, the glamour, the spotlight..... it was purely character building... Personally, i tink the new version is not as powerful as the old one.. Does not give that "sense-of-purpose" feeling.. yeaaa.... Most of u may be wondering waddahell i'm talking bout.. lol dun bother.. nothing important.. coz those who know, will know it.... damn we're old skool!! haha.. Peace! ;)

untitled

2008-09-10T16:10:00.008+08:00

"Rewind it back to a year ago.. You just celebrated your birthday at Sentosa with a new gurl... She was smart, beautiful, damn understanding, loyal and loving.. she was so much hotter than your previous gurl.. You're madly in love with her... even after a relationship of a few years, u've never been tiz swept away.. u were so inspired to write a song for her, and u did.. even despite her imperfections, she was perfect.. She dun throw tantrums and she so damn understanding.. Sumtin u didnt experience previously.. You feel like u juz did a triple hit combo coz u noe your previous gurl is now in a state of a madman.. she's feeling the loss now... it makes u feel good... dat bitch deserve it.. every piece of it.. Everything was beautiful until suddenly your previous gurl comes back in the picture telling u she has a problem.. A big part of u dun feel like its your problem.. she now have a problem which u feel dat has nothing to do with u but it was convinient for her to look u up... You recall all the times stranger coming up to telling u they been with her.. Stranger telling u wat her fren did to that drunk ass hoe, coz she is one of those dumb bitches who would go drinking without any of her own frenz to take care of her when she drunk.. it seems dat strangers are getting a piece of her.. cheap ass hoe.... u juz started having doubts..but being the f*kin genius that you are, u decide to go back to your previous gurl and let go your current one... Wat da f*ck u tinking bro?? You've just let go your chance of being happy to be with the same bitch dat u noe will shit on u sumday again... ur a f*kin idiot.... U had faith in wat u did.. being confident/cocky as u are u believe in wat u did... Alicia Keys' 'Woman Worth' keeps playing in your earphone, "Only a Real Man knows a Real Woman When he seeees herrr...."... U juz refuse to bail out on her.. u made your sacrifice believing that things will get better and u juz being there for her... fantastic thought, bro.. but datz a dumb move.. Everything went back to lovey dovey with your old chick.. u've accepted the fact that your previous current chick is now better off with sumone else.. Maybe that is God's will, u tell yourself... loser... soon afterwards your old chick started her nonsense again, getting in touch with other guyz sceretly and accidentally sending the sms to u.. she goes out with 2 other guyz and telling u it was a grp outing... etc etc.. now it becomes a stab in the back... u were there for her tinking that things would get better but it didnt.. she still da same bitch she was when u left her.. u started to wonder where the r'ship would go.. den suddenly she pulls the trigger and said she wanna split.. u cool with it coz u noe u got no problem hooking up with another one... but sumtin else happens, she hooked up first and with sumone u dun even feel is at your level... there u go, ego bruised as f*ck... her choice was a clearly an insult to u.. its like your battalion of veterans had just lost a war to a section of recruits.. den u feel f*ked up... juz as u knew it was going to happened, it happened, she bailed out on u.. to make u feel good, despite her having a new bf, u still meet up with her and get intimate with her... dat was your way of hitting back to the new bf coz u noe she cant resist u and she's never been da loyal type.. "dude i gamed your bitch".. haha.. Lil Wayne's Lollipop played on repeat mode "Shorty said the n*gga she with aint shit" haha..well done on dat one bro..

Now after burying her so many times, u juz sealed her tombstone.. u aint going back to the bitch after u noe she got intimate with her new dude, who u noe cant hold da candle to u.. u feel like shit.... u blow it out that u are all bout hustling and money over bitches and dat ur a Hustler, who would hustle for every dollar u make.. but look at u now.. u curling up in bed and dun feel like hustling.. u made 3Gs last month... but zero this month so far.. 2 weeks of tiz month and u havent been hustling... u havent been making money... look at your sorry self curling up in bed.. with no motivation.. she's no longer your 'ride-or-die-chick', she bailed out on u.. You made so many sacrifices and she bailed out on u... she died on u.. accept the fact that she is an ungrateful bitch... so wake up and snap back to reality man... for real... stop tinking bout wat u did was a right thing.. stop tinking bout what did u do to deserve tiz... The world was never made to be fair.. fairness and justice is just an ideology human create... nature is all bout dog-eats-dog world.. only the Strongest survive.... prey and predator food chain... the strong feed on the weak... sumtin dat u see thru out your life when u do all your part time jobs as a young one, u saw how unfairness sets in and nobody gives a shit and u gotta fight for your own spot.. power is in the dollar... u got the dollar den ur the predator at the top of the food chain.. ur nobody when u dun have power... so get out from bed... dun give the fasting as an excuse... u done courses and tough training in fasting months before.... so bounce back, wat happened to the Ambitious, Goal-Oriented and self-motivated individual?? wake up fo real... u noe u been in touch with better ladiez who are so much hotter than her.. take a pick and make a move... get on your life.. stop curling up in bed and be in no mood.. Stop being such a p*ssy.. So step up, its time to resume hustlin... stop listening to Boyz II Men's End of Road and Alicia Key's No One and start writing sad depressing lyrics.. GET UP ASSHOLE... STEP UP TO THE GAME!!"

"I sell anything I'ma hustler, I know how to grind
Step on grapes put in water and tell you it's wine"
: - 50 Cent's 'Hustler's Ambition'

Nike Human Race/ New Addidas Hoodie..

2008-09-07T16:11:00.007+08:00

Pics from Nike Human Race.

New Addidas Hoodie/ Rockstar shots.

When feeling down, eat Happy Food.

ok peace.

Nike Triax

2008-08-29T23:11:00.007+08:00

This month's production been ok... Got a few cases in the pipeline... Closed 1 CPF Investment case this month... anyway today i closed a case with a warm lead... one of my army boyz.. As usual, I explain how the inflation is affecting us in the long term.. then, I went on with the assurance that we are the one of the best place to invest in as we outshine all our competitors base on the Fortune 500 companies.. we're in the top 30 in the world.. And we are backed by one of the top 3 world's largest banks... its the same funds that u invest in the bank... so the branding and assuarance is there... Next, we are the only place that offer Islamic Financial Products in Singapore... None of our competitors offers that... and so I closed the deal.. after the whole thing, in the train, i smsed him sumtin like Thanks for giving me a chance to provide the service and represent him in the business.... He said sumtin that actually made my day, he smsed "No Worries Bro, kalau tak member sendiri, sape lagi kan........." And sumhow dat gave me goosebumps and i'm sumwat touched... haha... fo real... I mean the trust was there.... Again it brought me back to feeling the sense of purpose in doing wat i do... You dun get that kindda feeling from Warm Leads... God Bless These Brothers.. haha..

anyway.... I bought a new running shoes... First time in 3 years i tink (the army credit one doesnt count.. haha..) Got the 20% voucher off Nike products...I went crazy watching the new Nike Zoom series... but i had to go with the Nike Air Structure Triax 11 coz being a flat footed athlete, your consumer decision making process is rather quick coz u dun have much options.. haha... but the shoe looks fine and comfy anyway... haha.. yeapz.. its all goooood ;) i'm damn sleepy now, was accompanying a fren till like 4 am last nyte.. and it was my first time becoming a pillion to a female rider last nyte.. haha... ok..... Peaceeeeeeeee.....

Nike Air Structure Triax 11..

Coz I'm ME!!

2008-08-22T07:27:00.010+08:00

Watz going on peeepzzzzzzzzzz.. I'm playing tiz Lil Wayne's 'I'm Me'.. its HOTTT! "Bitch, I'm ME!!"

Honestly i dunno who da hell reads my entries, i dun have a loyal audience, but u noe wat, i dun give a shit.. i'ma say wat i wanna say..... I'm very expressive by nature... that's the very reason y u would like me or hate me, the very reason why i write my songs.... I channel it out.... that's my air... . anyway, as usual, i been doing lotsa tinking.... been talking with sum of the boyz (and girls too.. hehehe) bout r'ship and stuffs..... standard, typical, boring stuff... but it came to my attention certain issues..

You noe, there's only so much a man can take before he turn around and strike back.... I mean your partner maybe be the hard headed type of gurl... stubborn, irritating and disrespectful... juz coz u a nice guy, never allow the gurl to talk down on you or just be disrespectful... once she start insulting u or your family coz she pissed off and over reacting, that's where u start pulling the bitch by the leash and smack them in the face and remind them who they talking to.. grab by both its ears and scream the command in the bitch's face and make her shut up and sit... make her swallow her own words back and apologize... Bitch please..... Coz if i give u the respect, i expect the same thing back.. "Disrespect me and I'll Smack thee"... its like the mafia world, if u were attacked, u gotta strike back to make a stand like 'Dont F*ck Ard With Me' mentality... coz da moment u let it pass, u show weakness...... u let them step on you... these bitches gonna keep doing it... so to all the nice guys out there, STEP UP YOUR GAME!!
Bottom Line: Be a Bastard, u'll alwayz end up with a good girl and have sum previous girls who cant forget u.. Nice Guyz alwayz Lose, its bastards that these bitches take years to get over.... They'll forget nice guyz in a minute... hahahhaa... To have a difficult partner and just hard to please... oooh yeaa, I got a loooooong experience for that.. hahhahaha... i use to say, "I'm a patience man and i dun believe in hitting a woman, but if u are capable of pushing me to that level, you are 'up there'.... So please dun be the first one i'm gonna smack" (then u gotta give the bitch-slap gesture, that's why they call it 'bitch-slap' get it?? =D ) but the moment u make a stand, u dun back down... i mean NEVER...

But that gentlemen, is in the case of those hard headed bitches and difficult to please and handle and demanding (oh, they will alwayz say i'm not so demanding u noe, i juz want a guy who blah blah blah.... *list never ends*)... Word of Caution: Only indulge in them when u have Time, Money, Effort to wasteee.... Coz there are the more 'lesser-headache-girls' ard... Why subject yourself to such abuse and difficulties if they dun value all that u done, when there are ladiez (not bitches) in the market that are like the nicest things on earth offering the same end product... super easy going, damn nice ladiez... So moral of the story, pick a better option and dun f*king waste your time... Yea, Tell me bout it, talking bout wasting time on a........................................................... *dun remind me... been there.. done dat..*
Bottom Line: Be a Bastard, u'll alwayz end up with a good girl and have sum previous girls who cant forget u.. Nice Guyz alwayz Lose, its bastards that these bitches take years to get over.... They'll forget nice guyz in a minute...

2nd option is to go for nicer girls out there who are even willing to accept u for who u are.... Coz sum of this gurls, they want u to change tiz and change that... dun like tiz dun like dat.. at the end of the day, u realise datz not u.... its not who u are... stop it with the "oh my ex-bf last time was blah blah blah u noe" then go back and suck him off coz i'm not interested... he was like dat datz why he left u.... i am ME... i'm not HIM... Bitch, I'm ME... (oh do tell me bout the partner who is still chasing shadows of the ex-bf.. oh yeaaaa... been there done dat as well.....) if u not gonna accept me for who I AM, then we're thru.... Bitch Please........ Out of love i may make minor changes on certain habits... but not the whole ME.... its like u noe the dude plays soccer all his life, u dun impose dat he plays golf juz coz u dig guyz who play golf... den u shud go find a golfer bf den... dun hang out with me and waste our time... But again gentlemen, there are god-sent dudes out there who are willing to change everything bout them just to please the girl... romantic? yes... Touching? yes..... but not when his efforts are not recognised.... datz da point of time i'll tell the dude, "Bro, throw that bitch one side and dun waste your f*kin time.. who she tinks she is?? Beyonce??? Monica Bellucci?? Tell her to look herself in the mirror....no matter how hott she is, she got no right to treat u like dat... u deserve better" it pains me to see dudes who put in so much effort to change and it goes nowhere... like an ex-colleague at my previous sales job gave a vulgar analogy on doing sales pitch to potential customers that like to back out half way the transaction, "Sum of this people u pitch to, like to tickle and play with your balls till u steamin' hard, but when it comes to f*ck, they back out"... yea, leaving u high and dry and disappointed.... those gurls with huge ego, if u noe how to deflate it den do it.. if not WALK AWAY!! fo real... they tink they're the best in everything..... Bottom Line: Be a Bastard, u'll alwayz end up with a good girl and have sum previous girls who cant forget u.. Nice Guyz alwayz Lose, its bastards that these bitches take years to get over.... They'll forget nice guyz in a minute...

So to all the nice guyz out there... Dun waste your f*kin time... invest your time, money, effort on better options that can treat u rite (temper is not an excuse to throw words anyhow.. talk is cheap..) and accept u for who you are... If they tink world evolves around them then stay away from her and let her live in her own world... coz wateva mistakes they do, they still gonna blame u and stay unapolegetic... wat u need is the wifey material not need this kindda bitches.. arghhh tiz is wat happes when u meet too many of them... yes i'm harsh.. i noe... ok datz all.. i'm gonna get sum slp.... sighhhh.....

PS: I DUN DISCRIMINATE WOMEN. I LOVE WOMEN. FO REAL. heheh

My Lifeee

2008-07-26T14:03:00.004+08:00

http://www.hiphopdx.com/index/audio/id.5316/title.the-game-f-lil-wayne-my-life

Suppppp!!!!!!! hahaha... I'm playing on repeat mode tiz song 'My Life' by Game ft Lil Wayne... good stuff.... datz my taste.. lol.. Tonite I got a race coming up.... NEXT Challenge... Not really an Adventure Race its more like Amazing Race kindda concept.. sumtin new to XTREMEAST but we still gonna do it as a team lah.... 5-men team this time.. Flag off is like 9pm tonite and suppose to end at 2pm tmr... Can u believe dat???? haha... datz a freaking long time... its all good... I'm doin ok.. Getting on with life.... I got 2 races coming up Singapore Bay Run and Nike Human Race...

Work wise... My production tiz mth is just so-so... Restrategize sum of my shit and planning.. doing ok... Was at the bank yesterday created a Current Account with the Cheque Book, activated my phone banking shit as well as iBanking stuff coz i cant seem to recall my username!! haha... For now, i'm just focusing on my career, man... Got targets and career milestones to meet.. i'm setting my sights on MDRT status next year... VERY ambitious, i noe... its all good.. anything else is secondary for now.. Juz Career, Running, and Having Fun... Staying Focus.. oh, I'ma start going back to the Pool too... Juz bought me a google with optical lenses stuff... haha.. its a loooong time since i went back to the Pool.. I'm refering to TP Swimming Pool, I miss it in fact... Work, Run, Swim, Hang Outs, and oh music as leisure...

I got another confession to make i'm like heavily addicted to this Facebook application, 'Be A Tycoon'.... haha... i'm in the Centurion Club now... I'm like going back every few hours to see whether the prices have change... haha.. "Its Just A Game, Farhan!!!".. Btw, below is the opening clip for the movie 'Boiler Room', got introduced to me from my previous workplace... good stuff, check it outz..

Haha.. kk chillzzzzz.. datz bout it... Peaceeeeeeee Outzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I Buried Her Yesterday...

2008-07-22T12:49:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, i finally 'buried' the ex... I gave her an advance bday present... a video compilition of our photos through out the years... a chronological timeline kindda thing and a farewell msg..... from 2004 to 2008... She cried her eyez out... all the best with the new partner.... its all good..... I 'buried' the ex yesterday..... one love... peace... goodbye..

Hahaha..

2008-07-08T19:30:00.014+08:00

Muz check out sum crazy siblings video warping fun... hahha...

the apekkk!

Tiny Headzzzzzzzzzz

Haha... ok, I got some certification exam tomoro..... Roadshow on Thursday... and This Weekend I'll be on a Business Trip to Mersing... One of my brothers starting up a business up there.. So i'ma check it out... oh, for reservist, I'm posted to SA.... Weird or Wat... What is an Infantry Spec doing in Arty.. haha.. its all good.. alrite.. back to studying... PEACE!! :)

Ladiez And Gentleman!! The REBIRTH!!!~

2008-07-07T16:09:00.017+08:00

"Wow... eh, this blog looks kindda familliar....... Eh..... wait a minute.... this is MY blog!!! haha.. OMG!! I almost forgot this blog existed!!" ~~~ haha..... its all good now.. hmmm Last entry 17 October 2006..... And today is 7 July 2008.... I almost wanted to delete the whole blog until I start reading some old entries.... den i found it interesting ah.... Memoriez lah.. And so i decide to Revamp the Whole Blog, giving it a fresh new vibe... So I came up with a new theme and all..

Over almost 2 years.. Alot of things happened.... I'm Working now.... Launched my sales career as a Professional in the Financial Sector... I love my Job.. Completed NS as an Infantry Sergeant, got into trouble a few times but still managed to came out unscathed... Made great buddies there.. Sustained an injury during NS.... Still a member of XTRMEAST tho, we still running and climbing and shit... Haha... Doing my music as a Hobby... Hmmmm... Made a few mistakes in life... I'm a much wiser man now... Toned Down alot, in terms of being a 'Hellrazor'.... Learning to let things pass.... oh, And I'm single... Been in and out of love.... Me and the Ex didnt work out after 4 years of on-and-off-ness.... Everything start to spiral downwards when I was in Sispec.... around the 28th Month period.. After that, We split a few times but I guess I was stubborn enuff to keep giving it a chance... You noe, that glimpse of hope that things would get better and people gonna change... But I guess sumtimes hope will alwayz be hope... That's why it called 'Hope', you know the chances are slim but you still wish it mite happen.... Dreamz come true, hope dont... Anywayz, its all good... All the 'battlefield scars' and heartaches..... its over now, i guess..... Its kindda hard coz I shared most of my adolescent/adult life with her.... 4 years is a long time.... I feel like i've matured 30 years ahead because of the whole relationship.... all the shit i went thru..... but still its all good, Its a fresh new start now..

So that is Why I named the theme for this blog as "ReBirth: A New Beginning".... I picked a Phoenix to symbolise it.... I got the photo from google.. Den stretched it a bit and insert a line from the lyrics of one of the latest songs I wrote.... "Just Like The Phoenix, We Rise From The Ashes"... For those who dunno, the Phoenix is a mythical firebird, a symbol of immortality in all across the ancient world... Ancient China, Egypt, Persia, Roman and Greeks, American Red Indians, and other cultures... It has a life cycle of 500 years or sumtin, after which it will ignite itself and burn and become ashes.... After that a new Phoenix will emerge from the ashes.... Thus It Reborn itself.... Still the same creature juz a new start all over again... oh, one of Harry Porter movies showed the phoenix rebirth... And so, this is what I feel right now.. Was Burned into Ashes.... And now emerging from the ashes... A fresh new start, a brand new beginning.... This is............................ MY REBIRTHHHH!!!! (*background orchestra Starts and lighting strikes* haha) but yea, that's how the theme came about.... (I love the whole concept and I cant stop admiring my own work eventho its simple... haha..)

ok I think that's all for now... Will update again... PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Taiwan

2006-10-17T20:28:00.000+08:00

3 weeks..

Taiwan... Here I Come......

He wears a Red Bandanaaaa~~~~

2006-09-03T15:41:00.002+08:00

What's going on people... I'm still alive man..... haha... its been ages since i blogged.... alot of things happened.... So currently I'm in SISPEC now doing my 'Advance Section Leader' course, i'm gonna be an Army Infantry Sergeant tiz November..... I'm proud to be a Specialist.... I learnt alot so far, weapons, radio signalling, tactics, attack and defence, etc, etc, and also bout myself.... so far ok lah... Da thing i realise bout doing NS in the army and compared to CD or police is dat u gonna spend days in jungles, every now and then, and u cant contact gf and family.. datz da time where gf nags at u saying "y the hell muz u go outfield, i cant talk to u for 5 days straight" and so on, da gf gottta understand ah... in outfield, u dirty, cant shower, u stink, u pee and shit anywhere, yo face is foreva with face paint, ur tired, food sux, ur carrying heavy load and ur still fighting.... but its all good, coz i'm a SOULJA remb?? haha... And another thing is, route marches (so far i did 28km), u wear helmet, SBO, rfile and your full pack (they bag pack lah)... ppl gonna finish da march with blisters on the feet, abbrasions at the groin and butt crack, your uniform is literally drench with sweat..... but lucky me, i only get blisters, no abbrasions ah...

Things i learnt bout myself:

- My strength is dat i can carry heavy load, i'm no superman but i am able to carry heavy load on my back and go the distance.

- Anytime, anywhere. As a civilian, sumtimes u intend to go running, but since u got not enuf slp da night before u decide not to run. But in the army, when u gotta run, u run. When u gotta go outfield, u go. when u gotta fight, u fight. Regardless wether u got not enuf slp, not enuf shower or any fucking thing.

- U learnt alot from other ppl, good leaders and bad leaders, u see it with your own eyes, those who are biased and those who are blur or cock up.

- I was already very vulgar before i enter army, i'm a lil more extra vulgar now.

- I talk to God (pray) in camp or outfield more often than when i'm in my civilian life.

- Absence makes the heart fonder, i miss baby girl alot. Tho thru out we been thru alot of setbacks while i was in camp.

- You grow closer to your family, as u dun take things for granted.

- and u get more horny, no doubt....

haha... and oh i'm leaving for my overseas trg for 3 weeks in Taiwan (ROC) on da 17 Oct. That's on the last week of fasting mth. And i'm gonna spend my Hari Raya in sum jungle, in Taiwan.. will only be back on third week of Hari Raya... Fucked up shit...... its all good.... if it doesnt kill u, it will make u stronger..

Lastly, me and baby girl is doing fine... We argue alot and shit but its all good and shit, she's getting hotter by the day... We celebrated our 29th month-versary yesterday.. so its all good... haha... kk i'm done with tiz shit... Have a nice day... PEACE!!! ;)

Stand To! Stand To!

2006-05-06T12:47:00.000+08:00

Yes ppl... i'm still alive.... haha.. ok, i'm in BMT right now... in one of the WO company (if u noe wat i mean)... So far its all good... my first few weeks was quite a roller coaster ride..

a day before my enlistment, i took my prac 8.... Unluckily, CDC juz switched to very new bikes, as in fresh from cargo... so da thing is so fucked dat da bike will die off on its own, coz its very new.. and so i fell at da e-brake station during da warm up and got my left ankle burnt coz of da exhaust pipe(yes i noe kental..) Da rest of da prac wasnt so impressive but i'm alrite... in da evening, i got sum fucking gastric flu and start puking like eminem's 'Just Lose It' video... haha.. and it was bad ah till da next day (my enlistment day), took medication and shit... during enlistment, there was a cock up.... i was sent to a company dat dun have my name, so they juz pass me ard and shit... and finally by evening i got confirmation dat i'll be there... i was still feeling 'puke-y'... i wasnt so thrill bout da frenz at first coz i'm enlisting with da JC batch.. at da auditoriom, they start talking bout A levels and which uni course is better.... and i'm like, "ok cool... waddafuck am i gonna talk bout wit them.. i got no prob to conversate bout uni and shit... juz dat its boring and it mite be a prob to connect wit them fo da next 9 weeks.... den after da
whole mess, i got into my section of 12 men... and haha its superb!! i'll talk bout it later on...

so i only manage to fully recover after like 3 dayz but my leg, da burnt part is giving me problem coz its started to collect fluid... but no report sick yet... along da way da skin burst and it started to hurt... few days later, 1 weekafter enlistment, i manage to book out fo Good Friday eventho it was still my confinement period... and a few hours before i book in, i accidentally kicked a gym equipment at home and fractured my left second last toe... doctor gave me excuse from footwear for 2 weeks.. Fuck, i dun like dat.... i couldnt attend Nadia's wedding dat day.... so i was slowly limping back in tekong, dat saturday, med center asked me to come back on monday so dat i can get an excuse status from da MO... so, on dat saturday and sunday i was juz sitting ard watching my peeps go training.. and by sunday night i got fucking sick of it, so on monday i put on my PT kit and shoes and fall in wit da rest of da peeps to do 5BX and run... Fuck fractured toe, i'm not gonna sit ard and be sick bird.... i didnt go back to medical center.... i told my 'report sick IC, i'm ok already', and told my sergeant dat my excuse from footwear is over... and so i did my training, running and wateva wit a fractured toe.. it hurts abit initially den i got immune to it... i dun exert too much pressure on it.. still pushing da limit ah... on da tuesday, i did my 6km route march in full battle order, did group running (AGR) and combat fighting crap wit a 4 day old fractured toe.... haha.. it seems dat God is either testing me and telling me dat army life is not for me.. from da burnt ankle, to da gastric flu and feeling like crap during first few days, to da fractured toe... but its all good, i'm still pushing da limits... haha..

Now, after 4 weeks, we did our 7 day field camp already... i love da shit but da major setback is dat i cant take da hygiene level... its so fuckin filthy.... but its all good... we had to do this 'stand to' thing, sumtin new at BMT level... u and your buddy doing 2 hour shifts through out da night in prone position in da dark.. So when u are asleep, your buddy covers, when your buddy sleeps, u cover... so at all time, da sector dat u are covering will have 50% alert.... i'm cool wit dat... Trench digging almost killed me.. haha... but its all good.. my platoon sergeant is also my section commander, is a bastard at platoon level but a good section commander at section level.... my officers are great.. and i grown to have even more respect for Warrant Officers.. Shit, i wont see it as a big deal when u have your Platoon Commander (PC), who is a 21 yr old officer doing running and route marches wit u... but u'll be amazed when these old men, are running with u, at a good pace and doing route marches with full battle order wit u... and da way they conduct lesson, esp in field camp, u noe dat they're fucking knowledgable.. my PC is one of SG's top shooters, reppin' SG for international games... he is a sniper as well.... in da field, with barely any lights, he can creep silently behind u, and recognise u even tho your face is painted with helmets on.... fucking solid pair of eyes.... he used to be an army sprinter... so far so good ah....

my platoon has 63 men, coz they split up da last platoon in my company.... and since they sort us out base on IC no.s.. my section, da 12 of us are da older boys, '84 and '85 batch... almost all had to repeat sumtin in poly and one or two drop outs and shit.. haha.. FUN GILER I TELL U.... fucking jokers... haha.. all da funny guys, tattoo dudes and almost are da smokers are from my 'Section 1'... now after 4 weeks, we call ourselves da most 'KILAT' section, but we are alwayz da last to fall in, alwayz trying to push da limits (i cant quote examples at da moment) and get fucked.. but all are fun ppl... sharing personal sex stories and shit in da middle of da nyte, and get screamed by da sergeant coz we werent sleeping yet.... got blur cock in da sect and a Filipino PR in da clique... and all of em are fit siol!! they strong ah (shit, should have gone wit da PTP batch, lesser competition).... haha... we alwayz pushing each other when it comes to running and and da physical stuff... other den dat we 'SLACK-TO-DA-MAX'..... haha..

ok gtg now, meeting baby girl... will update a bit more next week.. PEACE!!! :)

Tiz is long overdue......

2006-04-07T11:29:00.000+08:00

........ Tekong, Here I Come....

Standby, Standby GO GO GO!!

2006-03-31T01:12:00.000+08:00

I'm still worried bout dat ez link issue.. but its all good ah... anyway, i was looking back at da video recording of my rappelling performance with da team at da indoor stadium for da affirmation ceremony. I'm proud of my Rappelling Display Team but our whole slot was cock up..

1) The despatcher of the 3rd lane never did training with us b4, he/she juz came down for da actual show and didnt hook us up properly, causing at least 2 ppl stuck at that lane.. but there's nth we could do as da despatcher are external ppl not our ncc ppl... Dat was cock up no. 1...

2) Our slot was schedule for 5 mins... our cue was da music dat i did fo production... but at da 2mins 2 secs mark, they switch da music causing da next segment of the show to proceed... so our slot was cut short by at least half.. So half of us, including me, was rappelling in da dark as da spotlight left us already, basically nobody watch our performance... so much fo all our hardwork and training sessions.... Thanks alot MEDIA TEAM!!...

But its all good... i'm done with this nonsense.. so yea.. anyway gonna collect my Xtremeast jerseys tmr... and its exactly 1 week to my enlistment... and oh speaking bout team, recently at Singapore Biathlon, one of da biathletes died juz 600 m before finishing line... he happened to be a 39 yr old army colonel... Damn! da other time, they had a man drowned during a swimming part of it.. fo those who dunno, Biathlon is a sport where ppl will do swim, immediately followed by run... For Singapore Biathlon, it was 1.5km swim followed by 10km run... shit.... All of a sudden da whole sport dun look safe... When i was with my old team, it was such a safe sport....

Anyway i read up dat Ngee Ann Poly newly formed Biathlon Team manage to beat TP's... So TP is like no. 4... wasted... its all good ah... during da year dat i was in da team, tho i was one of da suckiest athlete there, we were still TP Sports Team of the year... haha.. We even beat NUS.. We were no. 2, juz behind NTU by 1 or 2 mins... shit, we actually beat dudes who were older den us and had done NS and so on... it was crazy man!! haha.. but we had a strong team dat year... after NUS, was SP and sum JCs..... ok enuf of me.. I'm out!

EZEZ

2006-03-29T12:40:00.000+08:00

Last year, around tiz time... I went thru sum crisis.. Sum shit happened.... Tiz Year... another shit happened.... SBS transit juz lodge a police report accusing me trying to cheat EZ link fare by using my lil sister's ez link.... haiz... datz fucked up coz its so minor yet so major... haha.. kk.... so yeap... it juz had to happened less den 2 weeks before my enlistment... maybe i shud have juz left for PTP and stay outta trouble... no gf giving problems... juz chill.... haha.. neva its done anyway.. let's see how it goes.... PEACE!

so in love

2006-03-23T23:10:00.000+08:00

I'm sick of everything... sum ppl got weird ways to show their affection.... regardless wether u are sick or tired or u feeling down, or wether u had a bad day, they tend to find fault and bitch about it and etc etc and they make u lose your cool and your temper flare up (eventho you are known as a very patient man) and they say its coz they miss u that they are doing dat... "oh how sweet.. I'm so flattered.. Thank you so much for brightening my day!! :) i tink ur da best partner in the world!! LOVE YOU ALWAYZ!!!".... they juz wanna make things difficult fo u.... They are incapable of taking the r'ship into maturity level... they dunno how to handle a mature r'ship where u understand dat yo partner has other commitment.... coz when they have problems all they do is 'merengek' like a toddler.... And tiz is like the millionth time... So lesson learnt is, AGE DOES NOT EQUAL TO MATURITY .. fo real... trust me..

Ps: I dun really like to blog bout r'ship probs.. but i've had had enuf.. i'm sick of tiz shit.... walk in shoes.....

Dip in Sonic Arts

2006-03-15T01:53:00.000+08:00

WHY!

WHY DA FUCK RP's DIPLOMA IN SONIC ARTS NOT OFFERED 4 YRS AGO!!!!! ARGH!!!!! ARH!!!! haha... FUCK!!... One of da memberz told me bout RP's new course bout Dip in Sonic Arts since i was into music production.... When SP started Dip in audio tech i didnt get dat upset coz it was stirctly da technical handling aspect, no bizness aspects of things.. but this time around... Dip in Sonic Arts, they teach u da music aspect recording, mixing, mastering etc... as well as da bizness mgt and shit.. to be specific they teach entreprenuership in music bizness.. DATZ DA SHIT DAT I WANNA LEARN!!!!! ARGH!!! damn,.... I wouldnt have done so badly as i did in TP if i took dat course... as a matter of fact i might even shine at it and maybe earn a place in University..... Fuck ah.... haiz........ Its too late now.. i going army next month... And i'm not gonna go back and do another Diploma after NS.. i'll incurr too much oopurtuinity costs..... fucking miserable.... juz not my luck i guess.. tiz entry is in green coz its filled with jealousy and to remind me i'm going to tekong next month.... check it out http://www.rp.edu.sg/courses/technologyarts/dsa/course_structure.asp

oh and another thing is dat i get to book out after a week of enlistment during my confinement coz of good friday... and i got 2 weddings to attend.. The first wedding dat i'll be attending and its one of my peers getting married fo REAL!! haha.. i'm excited fo her... She noes who she is.... Right?? Right?? haha.. kk... I need sum sleep now... PEACE!!

Dont You Trust Me

2006-03-07T23:12:00.000+08:00

YEAAA!!!Currently listening to 2Pac's 'Dont U Trust Me' from his 'loyal to da game' album.... Ok anyway!! So watz goin on wit everybody out there... Its been sumtime before i updated tiz... oh before i go on, there's sumtin i wanna talk bout.... I hope dat 2 year old girl who went missing and later found dead (affectionately called 'Nonoi'), I hope dat she's finally resting in peace and waiting to be making her way to heaven... My heart goes out to her, she's done suffering.... Rest in Peace girl...

On a diff note, I hope dat killer (if its really da girl's step dad), I hope u get bashed up and raped by yo cellmate in jail till yo asshole dangles from yo butt crack... Coz hanging to death wont justify da child's pain... Wat kindda animal are u if u get sexually aroused and abused a 2 year old.... Shit.... DATZ NOT EVEN SICK.. GOD SHUDNT EVEN CREATED YOU IN DA FIRST PLACE!!!... wateva ah burn in hell bitch....

On other issue, thru out, i didnt comment at all regarding the Prophet's Caricature... I get da bullshit bout freedom of expression, but there are sumthings u dun draw.. Would you draw a caricature of yo mum and dad having sex trying to conceive you?.. U Wont... Datz juz an example... but its kindda sad dat ppl were getting dead over da protests... nah, i shall juz keep it till here, dun want no CIA to be scanning my background... Fuck dat shit..

Oh btw, da NYP sex tape shit... I pity da girl who got in da mess.. I'm sure she goin thru sum emotional trauma regarding da issue.. So to all da couples out there, 'Quick do a self check!'.. make sure yo shit is clean... I did check out da tape ah... da girl aint dat hot juz dat she's a pro.. but i guess wat makes da tape well sought was 2 things, da hype and for an asian porn they're not bad, coz da girl's pussy is nicely shaved and da guy has an acceptable size... I'm not a fan of asian porn coz u gonna have tiz chicks from China, Korea, Jap or wateva, have small tits, flat ass, and they dunno how to shave their pussy... So they gonna have one gigantic bush down there and even worse its not curly, its straight and long all da way up to their ass... EEWWW!! making it worse da guyz will have small dick (esp Jap Guys).... yea... so da whole shit gonna look like da guy's tiny dick is getting drowned by da girl's pubic hair.... and Jap porn girls dunno how to moan... They sound too squeaky..... So yea.....

Ok enuf of tiz shit... I'm done fo now.. Gonna update again on monday.... PEACE TO DA WORLD!!

XTREMEAST Part2

2006-02-26T00:26:00.000+08:00

I've deleted my last 2 entries bout my team jersey coz i dunno i find it draggy fo my blog.... So i'm not gonna elaborate on how i got to finalise tiz jersey.. juz noe dat i've been all over da island meeting up distributors/ suppliers and agents from saucony, new balance, asics and da one dat we decide to pick up... da logos have created and evaluated alot wit Din and sum other memberz of da clique.. so we decide to stick wit tiz one.. I've placed an order of 26 sets at $24 each.. Might go down to $23... See how..

Anyway 'Hamz', i assume u Hamizah rite?.. haha.. kk anyway... i get wat u mean but like i said we creating tiz whole 'Xtremeast' thing coz we wanna have sumtin in common dat is not NCC related... fo quite a handful of us, NCC is juz a past... When ppl see a grp of ppl wearing a red white running outfit, next thing comes to mind is da national team, not east district... its like u gotta see beyond dat... anyway da name 'Xtremeast' fits us nicely as all of us (except fo my gf.. haha..) are living in da eastern half of da island... bishan and hougang are in da eastern half.. my gf is da only person in our clique dat live in da west... so yeap.. so we gotta shift da paradigm of seeing not east district but us, 'Xtremeast'.. haha ok PEACE!...

Oh anyway, I did my Napfa/IPPT at Toa Payoh stadium and managed to clinched Gold award.. haha.. dun ask me my 2.4 timing is still crap, juz nice to get a C to get gold... So i'm skipping PTP and my new enlistment date is 7 April at Tekong Skool 2... Tiz means, i can still celebrate my 2nd Anniversary wit Baby girl... and ialready msg Hapy to tell him to put me down fo da rappelling display fo Affirmation ceremony tiz year coz i'll still be ard... haha.. fo da last time.. tiz time i'm gonna take pictures of it so i can put it in my portfolio or sumtin... haha.. kk datz bout it... PEACE!!

' X-TREMEast'

2006-02-08T00:51:00.000+08:00

Watz up ppl... Anyway!! i had an idea of making a team running jersey fo my ncc clique.... So we would have an outfit dat we would wear when we go to da beach or events like Singapore Marathon, etc.... Sumtin dat is standardise but sumtin non-ncc.... Spoke to most of them at the air port last saturday.... And all of them liked da idea.. So on Sunday, me, Zek and Din, had further discussion bout da matter.. we discussed bout wat to get fo everybody... at tiz stage there's like 25 to 30 of us... so we cant possibly get all 30 to discuss... So we make da decisions representing da clique... Not because we're power crazy but coz it save alot of time.. Coz i wanna get it done by next week... So we discussed from budget, to possible colours, to the number of ppl, our own logo and a team name.. da team name part was kindda hard at first.... Den decide to be da scribe and jot down everything... So we were brainstorming but we wasnt going nowhere, coz u need inspiration fo tiz kindda shit.. After so many names, Din came up wit da word 'extrovert', sumtin dat would represent us... den Zek said 'Extreme' coz almost everybody doin extreme sports.. Den i said 'Extremist' as a joke and all of us laughed.. Den suddenly da magic moment came!! haha.... I said "Extreme East (it sounds Extremist)!!"... And all of us were like "AH!!! DATZ IT!!"... haha.. but we had sum argument on how to spell it.. so finally me and Din finallised da spelling... its 'X-TREMEast'... haha... spoke to few us and they like da shit... I tink it summarise us.. 'Extreme' and all of us from da 'East'.. Not NCC East District but eastside... Hougang and Bishan is still east.. North East... So baby girl is da only one a lil out of place... Jurong SioL!! haha.. WESTSIIDDEEE!!!.. but it dont matter we're still a clique... haha yea.. so next step is to make a trip straight to da warehouses... Saucony done... next is Asics and New Balance... yeap...

Talking bout sumtin random.... I was looking at Seoul GArden.... I ever worked for them fo a few mths during my yr 2.... but neva ate there myself coz i cant afford it... but while working there, i realise dat eventho they say "$15 buffet-all-u-can-eat"..... but after adding da drinks, wet towel and etc... one person will be ard $20 or even more... But u noe, wat i tink is da sick part?.. U have to cook your own food!!! ok, if u still dun get it, let me re phrase... "$20-self-service-cook-your-own-food".... I mean.. u dun go to Fish and Co. pay first, den go pick up yo own raw fish in a pan and go cook yourself... den watz da point of eating outside when u still have to do da cooking... haha.. u get wat i mean??... No doubt its Korean Style.... but look at it da other way... business wise.. They make u:

1) pay an expensive $20+ per person for juz for lunch or dinner
2) self-service, take your own food coz nobody gonna serve u (they juz clear your plates)
3) den GO COOK YOUR OWN FOOD!

haha... goddamn!! U'VE BEEN CONNED!!!.... haha... but den again.. its strictly biznezz baby!! haha... maybe datz y, i neva see da point of eating there.... at least at coffee shops... I pay $2.50 fo my mee goreng, sumbody gonna cook and serve me the food... haha.. I guess datz juz an opinion of a former marketing student who is being sour grapes coz he dun get go to expensive places to eat.. haha... yea datz all folks!!.... PEACE OUTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

thrash music

2006-01-31T09:00:00.000+08:00

WAtz Goin on everybody??!!!! haha.. hmm.. it seems dat my 'beloved' Ms Dotiez dropped by... haha... its all good... i'm done wit her... i burned dat bitch a couple of entries ago.... haha... i guess i hit a raw nerve huh bitch?... haha.. L-O-S-E-R!!.. such an unpleasant individual... i dun tink she has many friends... if she does, i guess she's da cowardly hypocritical type of friend....

i'ma do a home recording of my latest track... its all good.. its sumtin like an underground anthem, addressing da industry.... as of right now, among rap acts, i tink Too Phat is da only respectable crew, and Ahli Fiqir is like the king of malay rap or sumtin.... crews like ruff edge and shit... they're lame as fuck (marilah bergoyaaaannngggg).... da other malay rap crews all talk bout 'hayungkan punggung' and datz all bout it... lyrics are sooo empty and lame.. it beats da purpose of hip hop damn it... they're juz so commercial..... hip hop was suppose to be street and very raw.... so yea.... to be specific, i'm not a fan of hip hop, i'm a big fan of hard core gangsta rap.... so when u listen to da track it has a soul of its own coz of its rawness... its all good..

speaking of thrashy music, i tink reggaeton is thrash fo real... Its neither Raggae nor hip hop nor ska... dat shit is not hip hop, u dun hear 50 cent rapping on dat shit.... i tink da real, loyal Raggae fans muz be bleeding inside to listen to how thrashy Raggaeton is.. its like damaging to da music.... i mean, if u wanna do fusion kindda thing, or mixing 2 genres or wateva u gotta do it well.. coz its either gonna come out as a Fusion or make u look like a confussed muthafuka... but i tink its gonna be a passing fad like 'Techno'... now nobody listen to dat shit.. back den it was everywhere, u go like pasar malam, they gonna play dat... now its raggaeton... notice dat only da kids enjoy tiz shit... target market will be da 15 to 18 yr olds plus those 20+ minah and mat clubbing.... give it till end of next yr... and da product life cycle will reach a decline... kids really sucking into tiz shit... thrashy music come and go... its real music dat will stay foreva... datz y hip hop, punk rock, ska, etc etc still ard and shit.... at least Sean Paul's music (datz is classify as 'Dancehall'), u can hear da evolution from raggae.. ok wateva... i'm done wit tiz issue...

anyway i'm officially going in tekong skool 2 on March 9 (datz like Biggie's Death Anniversary).... its all good... In my opinion, I may be wrong but tiz is wat i tink.. i'm aiming to get posted to either one of the command skools after BMT... but I tink chances are not gonna be dat high, coz i'll be competing wit da A' Level kids... they gonna post those wit better A level results to these command skools, gonna make them scholars and shit.... so i tink as of fo now, da challenge is to really outshine all of em... so fuck it, i'ma rock da whole island... haha...

Oh btw, Fidah and Yati going into police academy for their trg on 15 Feb (datz like Total Defence Day/Fall of Singapore Anniversary)... they gonna be Prison Officers... Congratz to them!! :) hehe... I wish them all da best ;)

Me and Baby Girl been talking.. We're making plans... She going into poly tiz yr.... meaning she graduating in 2009, hopefully by then, she can gain entry to the NUS Nursing course 2009 intake... with her exepmtions coz entering with a poly diploma, she should be able to finish by 2010... datz her ideal yr to get married.... So da plan fo now is to get engaged in 2009, da moment she finsh her diploma and get married in 2010, da moment she completes her degree... i'll be 25 by then and she'll be 27...... so its all good... hopefully dat'll work out... we see how it goes... i tink datz all fo now... PEACE OUT!!

Good Morning Class

2006-01-17T14:58:00.000+08:00

Haha... Guess wat, i did relief teaching at Greenview today..... haha it wasnt so bad... at least i'm getting income out of it... i did a couple of sec 4 and 5 classes.. Sum of em were my cadets and stuff... so its all good... I miss my Sec 4 life, no doubt bout dat.. (minus da O Level crap), it was great.. but no lie, i miss my TP life as well.. (minus da projs + tests), i love it.. i love da company, da peepz were great (tho most of da time i dun really like my grp mates), da bank robberz was great..... sumhow enjoy hanging out in TP.. i guess its da vibe and shit.. i believe TP is one of da few campus in SG dat has a great scenery... Maybe next to dat would be NYP... Da rest, i dunno, they look like warehouses and factories.. haha.. no, i'm not dissing other campus, juz commenting on it... at least, SP has Dover MRT to cover............. haha okok... enuf of dat..

Recently i've juz spotted an advance dip course at NYP dat offers exactly what i want... Advance Diploma in Management (International Business)... juz wat i want, 1 yr course, $3K.... i'm tinking of dropping by their open house tiz week to enquire bout dat, as well as for baby Girl's dip in nursing.. she can get exemption for her year 1 sem 1, as she got a GPA of above 3.5 at ITE, and has more den 2 years of working experience as a nurse.. so i'ma talk to them tiz week, baby girl cant go coz she's working....

oh speaking of her, she got new internet connection now... She started a new blog wit a new online nickname i gave her.... haha... she kept using 'baby', den i said its so plain and lame.. give more colour, more vibe, more fierceness in it.. sumtin unique...so i came out with 'Kyracer'.. Chey!! mane nye fierce entah!! haha... but at least dat sounds better den 'baby'.... and oh, she juz write in sum very sweet on her new blog.... she juz started it like a few dayz ago.. EVERYBODY CHECK IT OUT!!! haha... www.kyracer.blogspot.com .... yea... datz da shit... haha.. kk i tink datz bout it... PEACEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

imabummer.com

2006-01-13T21:48:00.000+08:00

I am a Bummer.Com...... hah..... Damn... i actually got sum stuff to talk about and i felt like blogging.. but suddenly i forgot wat i wanna talk bout.... haha... so neva mind den... forget it... but i still feel like blogging..... so what shall i say.. hmm... ah neva mind.. when i remb it i'll blog again... haha... (Farhan, WTF??).... kk peace... and oh, i would like to post up sum pics when my clique took when we overnight at East Coast da other time... dat was sum fun shit... got 3 tentages... ard 15 ppl of us who spend da night there... bout another 4 or 5 who joined us but didnt overnight.... its not our full strength yet tho... haha... ok. all da pics are courtesy of Fidah's.. More pix of it at her multiply.com... here sum of it.... so yeap... here it is...

Brunch + Hanafi comedy session..

Juz 'Hanging' ard... Baby Girl is so extra smiling at da cam... hehe..

Mcm apek siol... hahah..

Feeling Romantic tapi masih kopet... haha its all good ;)

and oh yea... Fort Minor is coming to SG... datz it ah gotta rob a 7-11.... da tix are affordable but i still dun have dat kindda $$... haha.. kk will blog again.. i'm so lame tonight.. so sleepy... PEACE OUUUUUTTT!!!!!

"Cant see it comin down my eyez so i gotta make da song cry....

2006-01-10T19:33:00.000+08:00

"Cant see it comin down my eyez so i gotta make da song cry.... I cant see it coming down my eyez so i gotta make da song cry...." DAMN I LOVE TIZ SONG!!!! haha... Jay-Z's 'Song Cry'.... HIGHLY RECOMMENDED!!.... haha yea yea... okok enuf of tiz shit.. so watz up ppl... anyway i guess i hit da nail with Ms Dotiez... haha she's gone fo good... "so u got nuthin else to say huh bitch?!".... haha... buah pley kat tekak.. hahah... but anyway i'm done wit her... if she tags again... i'll juz ignore it lah... i won datz all dat matters... haha... okok.. so watz been going on ah?... hmm.... i did my medical check up again with CMPB coz da one i did earlier has expired... I'm still a Pes A so its all good... I recorded my vocals wit tiz Focal Studio sumwhere 2 weeks ago... but i was still unsatisfied wit da mixing... so i mixed my acapella again and it sounded much better... it took 1 hr coz i already memorized da track.... I did 'Irreversible Change'... fo now i juz wanna compile wateva good shit dat i have.. i'm currently writing a track called 'Woohoo'.... its a beat dat i produced quite sum time ago... its da bounce kindda track... heavy drumz... its gonna stirrrup a storm i guess coz i'm taking shots at da music industry... still writing lah basically.. recently i've been feeling sum Cassidy and Fort Minor shit.... Goddamn! Fort Minor, tho i dun feel them as a crew, i'm so in love with their beats.. its my kindda beat... bassy, depressing, heavy drumz... strings... Woow!!! haha yea...

last week... Me and my clique spent a nite at sum budget hotel, having a movie marathon.... KECOH!!... 10 ppl squeeze to a 2 man room.. stay up whole night watching movie... haha... pancet siol... Baby Girl was there and dat was crazy... den dat night she overnight wit da clique, but of coz she didnt last dat long lah... she fell asleep on and off... and da next morning she's off to work... so its all good ah..

I received da approval letter to be a relief teacher... so fo now, i'm suppose to either wait for a call or i can call up any skool so they put me on their waiting list... but tmr, i'm gonna dress up and go to da skools and sell myself to put me on the waiting list... so its all good ah,... haha..

and oh yea, i manage to hang out wit shairul da other day, and hangout with Denise on another day.. its been a very very long time since i hang out wit Denise... and it was good!! haha... she taught me how to play pool.... haha... (dun laugh at me k)... i've neva been wit balls in da first place... haha yeap.... hmmm... and oh, i accompanied my cuz to appeal to go ITE Simei Nursing and enquired bout doing O Levels at BMC academy fo her... i tink datz all for now... yeap... PEACE!!! ;)

To my dearest Ms dotiez... haha....

2005-12-30T23:03:00.000+08:00

To my dearest Ms dotiez... haha.... ok those who dun realise datz da bitch dat been giving comments bout my girl on my tagboard.... haha... first of all, she tagged me and went sumtin like "but she's so ugly, big boobs for wat"..... and i was at loss wat she was talking bout coz i didnt put any cleavage shots of my girl here nor was i talking bout it in my recent entries.... so i tink da bitch was at da wrong website.... den i replied to her... and to my surprise she actually follow up and replied... it seems dat she is DEEPLY CONCERNED dat I am juz staring at my GF boobs while making out coz my GF is too ugly to look at... haha... first of all, Ms Dotiez wouldnt noe how my girl look like exactly, if she hadnt meet her.. hmmm.... so i guess we muz noe her or sumtin, but she juz dun dare to say it in front of us... leaving only anonymous tagging.... but den again, watz wrong wit being ugly and have big boobs... at least she got sum asset to show off... i guess our dearest Ms Dotiez is juz jealous coz she is ugly, and she got tiny boobs and a flat ass... hmm... my heart goes out to her bf (provided if she is capable of actually getting one)... i guess he was closing his eyes while making out wit u, coz he was fantasizing bout another girl.. (Maybe her bf was wanking to my gf's frenster pics, datz y she's pissed off.. haha...)... anyway dotiez, next time do leave a msg telling me who you are... so i roughly will noe watz yo background when u judging her... haha.. call me crazy but sumhow i juz enjoy sparking tiz kindda issue... haha.. so dotiez u should be flattered dat i dedicated tiz entry especially for u... hahaha

Much Love,
Truly Yours,

Farhan42

Ps: FUCK U BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaha...

tiz for my.....

2005-12-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

~~"Yeah! This for all my ni**as thats going through the struggle thats on the grind, all my ni**as that ever had to hustle to get out a dollar, tiz fo y'all man!"... haha.. taken from da song datz on my blog right now... haha... solid shit!! fo real.... So watz going on out there right now.... i'm juz chilling... been doing lotsa walking all over tampines and bedok and simei... trying to cut ez link cost... Budget siol! dah takde kerje, takde concession.... so yea... been writing quite abit at da moment... writing rhymes... i feel good fo now.. creative juices are flowing nicely.. i gotta agree dat school kills yo creativity man.. haha... i got tiz feeling NS gonna kill it too... i've been warned bout it in fact.... coz when things are too mechanical it juz kills yo creativity... datz wat i tink tho... i've remaking sum old beats and such..... and i'm going crazy listening to cassidy's freestyles.... sum how listening to him juz inspire u to try work on freestyling.. fo those who dunno he was a battling champion at national level or sum shit like dat.. only den he was signed to a label under producer Swiss Beatz.... den he started to appear in lotsa radio stations and they make him freestyle for like 10mins non stop and shit.. so yea its all over da net... haha and its all hot!... ok enuf of me blabbering... anyway i'm gonna make my first studio recording soon.. gonna slowly compile my shit and maybe after a yr or sumtin, create my own demo... performing wise, i'm juz laying low fo now... gonna comeback next yr... and gotta bomb it ah.. so yea.. i got plans... ok i tink datz all fo now.. actually i got alot more things to talk bout.... but neva mind i'm juz gonna stop here... yeap.. PEACE OUTT!!! oh yea, and i got one of my brothaz getting engaged next week... shit.... he's my age fo real... datz crazy stuff.... FAST GAME SIOL!!!... haha.. kk peace!!

new look?

2005-12-20T04:22:00.000+08:00

~~~~ I wanted a different vibe for my new blog.... its for 2006.... fresh look kindda thing.... its a new energy... put da past behind and look at da future.... haha... so yea.. blog revamped.. new look.. test test...... so here it is..... anyway u can take a look at da earlier look in da pic below.... ok.... hmmm.. yea datz bout it... i'm gonna get sum slp..... PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aim For da Head!!!!

2005-12-16T11:57:00.000+08:00

Aim fo da head when u see em go get him n*gga!!!!... haha... i'm juz going crazy..... been checking out Cassidy's freestyle vidz and tracks... haha yea he's hot.... and i tink he's one of those better looking rappers ard.....anyway, so watz going on out there.... its been centuries since i last blog.. alot of changes been happening ard.. but dun worry, i'm still wit da same girl... haha.. we been making a joke between me and her.. we're like siamese twins.... like it or not, we're stuck to each other... haha... yea... ok, anyway, at da moment i'm not doing anything.... no skool no job.... i chased CMPB bout enlistment... they told me its 9 march '06... i'm trying to clear my NAPFA within these few weeks, so i can appeal to go for da January intake... i get sick of waiting for too long here.. i cant get job and i got no money... so yea, cant bum ard dat much... coz Ez link requires money..... so yeap... so past few weeks i juz been running lah... trying to clock in 30km a week... 10km a day, 3 days a week.... so yea, its all good.. da whole idea is to be able to clock in 9 mins flat for 2.4km at BMT.... Baby girl been alright working at day surgery at dat private hospital..... so its all good... ok i tink datz bout it for now.. will update further soon.... and oh, i'ma change my blog template by next week... so tiz week is da last week i'm using tiz template.... damn, i been using tiz since nov '04.... eversince i had a blog... so yea... i tink datz bout it.... ok PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;)

My Open House

2005-11-17T19:31:00.000+08:00

I'm inviting all my peeps to come over my place tiz Saturday on 19th Nov... I'm holding a Hari Raya open house. I've smsed out to most peeps. Those whom i dun have number, i hope u catch a glimpse of this notice.. pls do make a trip down to my place... Come k people ;)

Item: My Open House
Date: 17th Nov '05
Time: 1pm to 5pm

PEACE!!! ;)

BOOM!!!

2005-11-08T13:57:00.000+08:00

Nah, tiz is juz a random entry... i'm on MC today.. yea so fuck it.. haha..yea... i still havent get my enlistment letter... slow process.... so i guess i'm not going in tiz dec/jan.... den it should be in mar/apr 2006.... datz like a handicap start for me by 1 year compare to my peers... i was targetting to get my career launch by da time i hit 21..... so i'm not too sure will dat happen.. so meanwhile, i juz gotta make as much money as possible while i'm still outside.... i get sick when i bum ard.... its like i'm wasting my life away... i'll constantly be on sum mini projs i create fo myself... time is precious, and i aint got much time... Fo now, my worry is dat they gonna enlist me to da police.... no offence man, i got lotsa peeps wit dat force.... in fact when my clique have a gathering of more den 20 ppl.... we dun worry shit bout us getting screened, we got 5 police officers wit us.... if zek brings rau rau ard, den we gonna have 2 nurses (raurau & baby girl) and a medic (shairul) on standby.... haha.... i feel safe (Like Duh!)..... haha... wait till i put on an SCDF uniform, we can form our own home team.... haha..... but honestly, should i receive my enlistment letter posting me to da police, i'll immediately approach scdf to sign on as a ERS or emergency response specialist.... its either i'll stick wit da army or go wit scdf... sumhow, i dun get a good vibe of me being wit da police... maybe coz i'm not dat morally righteous and i will neva follow by da book... yea... its like i'll be going against my nature kindda thing.... its juz not my kindda organisation... no doubt dat police will see real time action on daily basis but still... i dun its for me.... juz pray fo da best.... and wait for me enlistment letter come asap.... i wanna be over and done wit tiz shit.... i'm flirting wit da idea of becoming a relief teacher after my contract as a cust serv officer ends... haha... juz fo da experience lah ah.... they pay good money i heard... haha...

Meanwhile, i'm currently trying to clear my Class 2b liscence asap.... da way i look at it, its like a 'rites-of-passage'.... haha... being a malay dude, its like most of da malay dudes ard can ride... i'm stereotyping.... haha... but wateva it is, i've alwayz wanted to ride since i was a kid... juz dat when i turned 18, i was on a 'insufficient-funds' mode.... so i'm doing it now, doing it my way.... my clique almost all of em can ride or drive.. so yea.... so fo now, i'm taking pride in getting my liscence with my own hard earned money... no parents funding like most ppl out there.... i aint no rich kid, i'm on my own remb... my dad did his riding and driving liscence on his own.. no funding,.... so i'ma do dat... Baby girl did her class 2b,2a, 2, 3, all on her own money.... even her bike back den... but she was bonded as as student, so yea, it was financially possible fo her... anyway, i'm targetting to do my TP tiz dec or if not, tiz jan.... I cleared my RTT already, tiz saturday is my circuit evaluation/prac 5..... i heard dat alot of ppl dun clear it on first attempt... but still, i'm aiming to clear it on first time... its been a couple of mths already since enrolled fo class 2b... its rather slow fo me coz i've been taking like 1 mth break, 2 weeks break, etc.... coz of no money... plus i'm not dat good, i have to do a few attempt to clear 1 prac.. so yea.. however slow, however painful... u gotta complete it right?... haha.... yea.... ok datz bout it...

Tiz was da only bike dat made me fell in love at first sight when i saw it on da road..... Aprillia MX125... scrams.... but my dream bike fo now is still Suzuki GSX-R600.....

da only rapper dat i noe who rides bikes back den is 50 Cent... alot of his older songs (Ghetto quran, Gotta make it to heaven) back den and his autobiography mention him selling drugs while riding GSX-Rs.... Ppl over there mostly rides large CC bikes.... check out movies like 'Biker Boyz'... below he mention bout spraying his gun on his enemies while riding on a GSX-R1100....

"Some say I'm paranoid I say I'm careful how I choose my friends/
I been to ICU once I ain't going again/
First Zee got murked, then Roy got murked/
And homies still in the hood, why he ain't getting hurt/
I smell somethin' fishy man it might be a rat/
Damn niggaz switchin sides on niggaz just like that/
U know me, I stay wit a bitch on her knees/
And get guns away in the hood like government cheese/
Spray on Suzuki's 1100 cc's/ "

:- 50 Cent - Gotta Make it to heaven

alrite datz bout it.....

PEACE OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Hustle

2005-11-06T13:06:00.000+08:00

WATZUUUUUUUUUUUUUPPPP!!! Haha... Yea... its been ages since i last blogged again... haha yea... first and foremost, i would like wish all my fellow muslims Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin... Kalau ade salah silap, terkasar bahassa, tersalah gurau, harap mintak maaf ye?.. I hope everybody had fun with their holz... I had fun...

I feel blessed lately... Anyway juz to inform everybody, i've got a job... finally, after going thru so many job interviews..... its sum office shit.... I'm a Customer Service Officer sumwhere near Tampines Central..... I'm still under training, Alot of product knowledge to cover, i've learned alot so far... and i mean alot.... i'm working on mondays to fridays, office hours, and its $50 a day.... its a temp job till 31 dec... .so yea.... Looking back i've done all sorts of temp/part-time jobs but tiz one is da first proper office job.... I've done, Movers (carry things when ppl shift house), contract cleaner (I was cleaning newly built condos, haha), waiter (F&B is neva my cup of tea...), security(dat was cool), pri/sec school workshop facilitator, etc etc.. i've tried outdoor selling, shopping carts and event planning and stuff (and datz not yet included da NCC things i did).... i guess datz da way i hustle... doing wateva it takes to bring da dollars in.... coz u need da money badly... My last job was at da air port, with a contractor company carrying luggages...

da job basically either load or unload baggages onto da containers of the air planes.... da workload's heavy... dat was sum hard labour shit... u would clock in a few hundred baggages in one shift, and average of 20kg per baggage.... esp those long flights to london or aussie flights (sum of em can go up till 30++kg, i tot they have limts?).... after working there awhile, sumtin i learned is dat.... i dun care how many fucking pull ups u can do.. i dun care how fast u can run....da bottomline is dat can u carry da weight.. coz i see old man who carry 30kg+ like nobody's business... and they're not da fit sort... datz sum crazy shit.... actually da job isnt too bad, i can get almost $30 if i work one shift... in 1 week u could get ard $100+.... but da sucky part is da mgt.. they can eat up yo money... when u come late and made all da way there, they gonna ask u to go home coz da job is first come first serve.... u gonna go home feelin dissappointed.... but if u dun turn up fo 1 shift, they can dock $102 from yo pay.... they say its liquidated damage... there goes yo hard earned money... all da sweat and time u put in.... datz like so unfair... sum cases, da supervisor wont report dat u didnt turn up he can dock a couple of dollars into his pocket.... so u gonna lose sum money but not as much as $102... its 'bribing' him... datz sum sick shit... its a cold world out there when u and yo fam need money... but datz da harsh realiy out there right?... thank God they didnt dock any of my pay.... i was there for like 3 mths, thru out my final sem of skool.... so it was kindda crazy, go skool den work... and i gonna be home so exhausted... so i left and now i'm with this new cust serv job... i'm blessed...

i'm officially out of skool (FINALLY!!).. I've been awarded a Diploma in Marketing and will be receiving da cert with next year's graduating cohort... My GPA is 1.48... Mostly D's, da rest are C's, and one B... I got B fo Sociology (Thanks fo da textbook sheereen)... haha.. 1.48dat makes me an average D student... coz u get 1 point for Grade D, 2 points for Grade C, 3 Points B, 4 points for grade A, 0 points for Fail.... so 1.48 will be an average D..... haha.. waddahell.. but my CCA cert was good... I got 'Excellent', datz da highest grade an ordinary school athlete can get.. usually da captains and vice-caps are da only ones to receive 'Disctinction'... so yea... 2 years with da biathlon team was good... but den again, among my team mates, its no big deal... everybody does well... we earn alot of points coz of coming in top 3 spots in those inter varsity comps.... so yea... i'm proud of dat.. haha.... thru out my school years... its alwayz da non-academic achievement dat i'm proud of... haha its all good... i'm happy dat its all over fo now... i feel blessed....

Me and Baby Girl been doing really fine... we been getting along well..... she's been great.... we juz celebrated our 1yr 7 mths...... still going on strong.... basically, she is now working at a private hospital in bugis as a ward clerk or sumtin..... but she's requestting to be scrub nurse (da nurse who assist da surgeons in an operation).... after leaving SGH, she was working as a drug dealer.... yea.. she issues drug at da medical center in da Gurkha Contingent's HQ.... haha.. 2 weeks later she took tiz job at da private hospital... so its all good.. she's doing ok there... but lately, her health havent been very good... i'm worried bout dat... but nontheless, i feel blessed...

This year's hari raya been great for me.. Things been getting better fo my fam.... so its all good.. we manage to buy me a bed and a proper study table... and a new pair of shoes for me.. i got a brown high cut converse sneaks, how cool is dat.. haha.. my family wore black tiz yr... me and my siblings got new clothes... mum and dad juz wore sum black outfit dat they already have... we also got ourselves a simple digicam... dad got it free from sum insurance investment plan.... and da family car havent got towed away recently...... i'm still living life to da fullest... i'm happy............... i feel blessed........

Fade To Black

2005-10-08T10:57:00.000+08:00

Woot Woot!!.. Haha... i juz finished watching Jay-Z's 'Fade To Black' DVD... He documented how he recorded his whole album. 'The Black Album'.... dat was suppose to be his last album... and da dvd showed his concert at Madison Square Garden... Its Crazy!!! haha... his gig was alrready crazy, da thousands of ppl in da crowd was feeling him.... rapping along and shit.... superb ah.... He brought in all da rappers in his label, missy elliot, twista, foxy brown, R. Kelly, Beyonce, pharell, Mary J. Blige and so on.... He got a live band at da back and shit... damn, datz da kindda show datz freaking worth your money.... But anyway, watching him record his album was da most impressive shit.... Da dude neva freaking writes his rhymes!! haha... testimonial by other producers was like, "He is one of those few ppl who could record 30 diff raps in one day and remb every single one of them.. And he dun write them"..... what he does is dat, da producer will play a beat... He'll juz listen to see if he feels them.. they juz keep playing another beat and another one.. and when he finally found one dat he likes... he juz let it play and u see him stat walking around da studio mumbling to himself.... datz da point of time, when he is writing da whole verse in his mind... den he enter da booth and records da verse.... and there's no paper!! there isnt even a pen in da studio!!... haha.. superb ah... he was working wit Timbaland (missy elliot's producer), where he record 'dirt off yo shoulders'... dat rick guy, where he record 2 tracks including 99 problems.... wit Kanye west, where he records 'Lucifer' and 'Encore'..... superb ah... and he said sumtin dat made me go, "woah".... he said sumtin like, "da most important to me when u do music is inspiration, coz when ur not inspired, den u start tinking.. when u start tinking, den u are forcing out da music, its neva good...".. basically it gotta come in and flow naturally... u gotta feel it ah.... haiz.... datz like talent at its rawest form.. haiz... haha.. superb... okok datz bout it... PEACE OUT....

Juz trying to live life to da fullest

2005-10-05T23:36:00.000+08:00

Watz going on???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahha... yeap.. again, its been sum time since i updated my blog.. let me rewind it back to............

Thursday:
Sent off Opah and Atok (Grandma and Grandpa) to da airport.... they going to perform umrah lah.. so yea... den in da evening a dumb thing happened... I rushed to Ubi driving center fo my bike prac 3.... i was so enthusiastic bout it... i put it as a reminder in my diary and hp.... i arrive gave my book and my receipt... den to my surprise da instructor pass me back da receipt and said, "U booked on da 27th sep.... Today is da 29th...."....... i was like, "huh?? really???"... haha... i came on da wrong date... sumhow i even put da reminder on da wrong date... and i juz wonder how da fuck dat happened... there goes my $21..... haha yea.. den met up baby girl after her work..

Friday:
Got home after friday prayers, den picked baby girl up from work, and we went to watch dukes of hazard... Jessica Simpson is nose-bleedingly-hott!! haha.. yea den we went pizza hut to eat since it was baby girl's payday lah.... if it was me, i wouldnt afford dat kindda shit...

Saturday:
>Tutored my cuz in da morning, fo her N Level accounts paper...

>den left to meet up Guang near my hood.... its all good.. been a long time since i caught up wit him... haha... they're still my boyz.... talked sum shit...

>after an hour or two, went home to have lunch, check mail, and pack up for tonight.... Actually, theres sum Beats Society gig but cant go coz Din already pulled me in sum runnning race earlier...

>So met up wit Din at 6 plus at Tamp library bus stop wit all my barang2.... so we made our way to 'Kupang', sum-soon-to-open-LRT station.... it turned out to be sum NTU anniversary round island run.. fo us as fun runners, it was a relay, wasnt too far, 3.4km only.... we got a small goody bag and a free t-shirt...

>after which me and Din met up Baby Girl to made our way to East Coast... My clique planned to overnight at East Coast, fidah planned it... So all of us pitched tents and brought food and got together... Our total strength was alot ah but those who overnight are ard 12 ppl i tink.. So we got 2 4-men tents and an 8-men tent, and abundant of food... haha.. i cock up coz i was suppose to bring solid fuel but i didnt(sorry fidah).... but still we had a helllot of food... all in all we i had a super great time!! haha... da 42nd peepz reunite... and all laughing our ass thru da night.... haha... i slept only ard 2 hours... hanafi told us his story bout him wanting to sign on and shit.... haiz... da more i'm getting disgusted by da army's management side..... once ur a malay dude and ur too outstanding or shining, they sent u to police.... if they miss u out there... they juz refuse to let u sign on even juz as a rifleman, eventho u cleared all da courses and exercises, clinched battalion best trainee, and so on.... racists...... i got a friends' friend who only got N levels but already a regular... and another dude, dropped out in sec skool now in ADF..... fuckaz.... they can give ridiculous reasons like, "sorry we got no vacancy in da infantry".... WTF??? infantry no vacancy..... u tink singapore population is 40 million??... boat load of bullshit.... u got so many fat kids in da infantry.... too many ppl in my clique ah end up like dat... should it be juz one or two, it may be co incidence but too many of em.... its a pattern... u dun need dat much intelligence to fiure dat out.... they know dat if they sent this bunch to da army, they confirm will shine... and they are scared of dat..... its all good ah.. i'll still fight fo what i want.... should they handle it wrong wit me, it'll juz add fuel to da fire.. squeeze it all out into my music.... people will feel me... its a good thing i didnt do napfa and i'm not airborne or diver qualified... coz in fact i'm da only guy in da clique who dun have asuch decorations... so they dun see me as a threat..... ok enuf of dat shit... all in all we all had a super great time lah...

Sunday:
>still at east coast from da night before..... we had another laugh-yo-ass-till-u-die session.... den it started raining and we unpitched everything and left...
>after all dat whole thing is over, baby girl accompanied me home to put my stuff den went to bugis to meet up her lil sis and bought their hari raya shoes... den went library for awhile....
> den went to our fav hangout place till night...
>den we both went home ah.. i'm tired from yesterday's race, lack of sleep and da constant laughters... haha...
>It was me and baby girl's 18th monthversary.... haha... Whispered to her a happy monthversary dat morning by beach.... '~*Till Da End of Tyme*~'

Monday: Went out wit baby girl again.... but i cant seem to remb what happened.... shit.... memory sucks....

Tuesday: Meet up wit baby girl in da evening to go to Police Academy... WAtched Zek's passing out parade ah... da parade was ok lah.. not too bad... it wasnt grand at all ah... den after dat left fo 1st terawikh of tiz ramadhan....

Today: Went for my prac 3 today... had to retake... it wasnt dat good ah..... den got home and break fast den went terawikh prayers....

Incoming>
Tomoro and friday: my dad put me in fo sum insurance course 10am to 5pm...
Saturday: Tution my cuz fo da last time before her paper....

yea i tink datz all fo now..... Me and baby girl on temporary time off.... coz its da fasting month and we dun wanna commit any sins.. so yea... we trying not to meet fo 1 mth in order to stay clean ah... haha.... yea.... i'm still a God-fearing man after all.... so yea datz bout it.... PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ps: Tanx fidah fo organising da outing, and all my 42nd peepz (Yati, Zek, Din, Hanafi and da rest)..... and Zek good luck wit da posting.... To all da muslims all over da world... "Selamat Berpuase( JAngan tak puase TAU....)... haha.... and oh by da way, i have officially completed my course of study at TP.. FINALLY!!!!!!!!!! haha.... and below is a random pic of my room...

God Gave me Style....

2005-09-24T00:58:00.000+08:00

Artist: 50 Cent
Title: God Gave Me Style
Album: The Massacre

[Chorus]
God gave me style, God gave me grace
God gave me style, God gave me grace
God put a smile on my face
Haha, God put this smile on my face
God made me shine like the sun
God make me shine like the sun
Sometimes I feel like I'm the one
Sometimes I feel like I'm the one
It ain't my fault

[Bridge]
I just reach for style, I'm hot I breaks it down
It ain't my fault, you can't break it down the way I break it down

[Verse 1- 50 Cent]
Listen you can call me what you want, black and ugly
But you can't convince me the Lord don't love me
When my cds drop, they sell the best
You call it luck, why can't it just be I'm blessed
I'm a trackstar, runnin' through life, chasin' my dream
Best deal I made was tradin' the mic for that triple beam.
I zone off thinkin' is there really heaven or hell
So what happens to a changed man who dies in a cell
I need no answers to these questions, cuz time will tell
Got a date with destiny, she's more than a girl
Don't much good come from me, but my music
Is a gift given from God so I'ma use it (Yeaaah!)

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
I just reach for style, I'm hot I breaks it down
It ain't my fault, you can't break it down the way I break it down

[Verse 2- 50 Cent]
Some days, I'm in the crowd all by myself
Bunch of niggas around I'm still by myself
I drift off on a cloud by myself
Thinkin' bout nothin' more than life, what else
These days its hard to tell who really cares for me
So you when hear this song, you should say a prayer for me
I put a message in my music, hope it brightens your day
If times are hard, when you hear it, know you'll be okay
A O.G. told me God's favorites have a hard time
You out the hood, that's good now stay on the grind
I'm a sponge, knowledge and wisdom, I absorb fast
I'm in a class by myself, you do the math

[Chorus]

[Fade Out]

da problem wit me...

2005-09-23T08:15:00.000+08:00

U noe, da problem wit me is dat i'm da passion driven sort.... i work base on passion... When it comes to doing sumtin, i'll either be giving a 1000% into it or i'll give like a 0 to 10% effort... its 2 extremes.... the good thing is dat once i'm triggerred i can spent hours/dayz/months/wateva into what i'm doing... Its a non-stop-burning-will-neva-die-passion kindda passion..... so da perfect setting is dat if my work is sumtin i like to do, i'll be da most hardworking/productive person, so fucking passionate bout it, willing to go da extra mile bout it.. i'll be such a perfectionist.... da bad thing is dat if i am to do things dat i dun like, i'll be putting so little effort in it... datz where ppl dismiss me of being lazy and dumb...... like what happened in my academic life.... skool's not fo me..... but in life u gotta be realistic.... i mean, in life, u dun alwayz getta do things dat u like... sumtimes in life u gotta do things u dun like... ppl dun alwayz end up wit their dream job... but u still need to survive... u still need to get paid.... like it or not u gotta do da work.... i dunno how i'm gonna work it out.....

And when i'm passionate bout sumtin, da passion will neva die off, unless dat passion of mine hurts me in a way.... at one point, i was so into my NCC 'Career'...... but along da way, nearing to da pinnacle of my 'career', there was a chain of events dat made me so dissappointed in da organisation dat i juz totally dissappear from da whole thing..... imagine turning from 1000% to 0% passion overnight.... and when i did make an attempt to come back after so long, i see so many new faces.... and my feeling fo da whole thing is juz diff from back den... its like i lost da fire..... i guess same thing wit everything i do..... from music to girlfren.... haha... its true... when i'm in love wit u, i'll be yo World's Sweetest Boyfriend... i make songs fo u.. give u flowers.. do all da extra stuff fo u.... hand made presents... drawings.... surprise love letters..... sacrifice my beauty sleep... i'll be super loyal.....i'll be sending u home (despite da fact dat its already late and u live on da other side of da island;P haha.. right baby girl?? )..... i'll be yo most romantic boyfriend, and da fire juz wont die, unless........... u did sumtin wrong or i find out dat u did it... den da fire juz dissappear... and its so hard to rekinddle.... it will neva be same..... datz da shit... wit baby girl, there were times when my flame died out..... coz truthfully she's no angel, she's not da perfect girlfren, in fact when we started out, she's da lousy-pain-in-da-ass type of gf..... but sumhow we have lasted 1 and half years.... sumhow da flame did rekindle...... she went thru an emotional roller coaster ride, which is enuf to change her charater overnight..... datz y, she is a completely diff person now compared to back den... eventho we're only 1 and a half years together.... wit da kindda shit we go thru.... we been thru alot ah.... i feel dat we been thru more den what other '1 and half year' couples go thru.... i love her... so basically i guess, i'll either be a super successful dude or i'll be such a loser dude.... yea i tink datz bout it.... peace out...

Skool's over, BITCHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! Hahaha....

2005-09-09T02:58:00.000+08:00

Skool's Over, bitch!!! haha.... YEA YEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm back!!!!!!!!!!! haha.... its been exactly 2mths since i updated my blog..... sorry man, i really had no time... was so busy wit skool, work, bike lessons, den project deadlines, den internet got cut off, den exams... den i'm back now... so its all good... i finished my exams already... hopefully i made it thru.. no shit, i dun wanna do Supp paper fo real... argh.... let us pray...................................... haha....

Past few weeks, i've been looking at da possibility of me doing a part time degree program.. i was looking thru so much shit dat i finally came to 2 options, for a part time course, it will be University of London's Bachelor of Science in Business at BMC... for a full time course, it will be RMIT University's Bachelor of Business specialising in MArketing at SIM.... i was so hyped up bout da idea of doing a degree dat i forgot why i didnt wanna do a degree in da first place... when i started to revise fo my Econs paper, den i remembered why.... For da simple fact dat i hate to study!!! its juz tormenting for me to sit down with books and revise and study.. datz fucked up... haha... i can hardly make it thru fo my diploma, and i dun tink i have da discipline to complete a part time degree... And for me to do a full time degree, i think i'll incur an oppurtunity cost for da time and money.... Coz i'm gonna do my own bizness, and i dun need a degree to do dat... so rather den spending like $15k on a piece of paper to frame up in my house after i die, i rather put dat money as a start up capital.... So, at this stage, its a 'fuck degree' mentality fo now... Maybe things may change along da way while i'm doing my NS, i dunno... let's see lah how... Another course i may consider is Diploma in Audio Engineering from SAE insitute... its a 1 yr full time course, and its $10k, before any subsidy... Coz i'm thinking of doing Music Biz and a Clothing Line.... Tiz may sound crazy but datz da way it is... i've been wanting to do my own label since like 2 years ago... But lets see how it goes lah.... at tiz stage, i'm not gonna do a degree, i got nothing to prove.... in fact, by not doing a degree, i got everything to prove.. i'm gonna be rich without having a degree... and i'ma get degree holders to work for me.... yea, datz wat Creative Technology CEO did.. dat dude only got an engineering diploma and a vision.. and datz it.. now, his MP3 players are already killing Apple's iPod on American soil itself... even Paris hilton uses Zen Micro.. so its all good... So i wanna make a headline with An average D+ poly student back den, now making his first million with his corporation... or sumtin like dat ah... rock da world man... haha..... i'm such a dreamer.... ok enuf of dat shit..

Alot of my peeps are already in NS now... a handful of them are entering army within these few dayz... Good luck on dat shit... i'm suppose to go in december, but no confirmation yet.. My dream unit is still da ADF.... those who dunno, they're da dudes dat SAF sent overseas for peacekeeping missions and other stuff.. My plan for now is to sign on with them.. once my short term contract ends, den i'll fuck off from da army and do my own shit.... i mean, if u sign on in a combat unit and all u do is training, courses and excercises and no real fight.... its equivalent to a guy who wanks all his life but never get to taste da pussy... haha.. yea... sumtin like dat... i'm not dissing da regulars tho... diff ppl diff mentality... sum dudes wanna sign on but will neva wanna put their lives on da line... so wateva... back den, me and few other CLTs did our rappelling course with one of da platoons from da ADF first batch at School of PT, and like 50% to 60% of da ADF troopers are Malay dudes... so its all good... i dunno if its different now lah... so let's see how it goes for now... not dat i'm racist, juz dat being a malay dude trying to make it in SAF, i'mjuz being realistic... And my perception of Guards are really going down... i have never seen them as elite in da first place since back den..... den when i was in Australia doing Ex Wallaby, i watched them in da field.... den back den my Triathlon vice captain was dissing their conversion course, saying its easy lah.. any infantry dude can do it.. he said, if u can do biathlons, u can do their conversion course... den recently shairul was telling me bout da conversion course... so i'm like, alah no big deal.. they no diff from other infantry unit ah.... abeh nak step mane nye elite entah.... so its all good.. but maybe if i could, i sign on with guards ah, its an easy way to tangkap glamour with da khaki beret.....

anyway aside from all dat.... now i wanna talk bout me and baby girl.... haha... we been doing ok... been better fo da past few weeks... she's becoming a better gf as time past... she's not behaving like a bitch nowadayz... She's growing up fo real.... and she's getting hotter too!!.. haha... She lost 10kg in 2 to 3 mths... her waist size drop from 32 to 25...... she's been running like 4 times a week and watching her diet ah... from her ex collegues to my boyz, all gave da same reaction... "Eh u lost weight eh?".... haha.... i'll take credit fo dat... haha... i've been making fun of her and so on... knowing her, i know she wanna prove her pride, her ego been challenged... so dat gave her motivation ah... haha... and even tho she's slimmer now, her boobs are still there... There was once sumbody who tagged my tagboard, dissing baby girl, saying dat her boobs are big coz she's fat.... haha.. well you're wrong BITCH!!!! haha.... measurement wise, she may have drop by few cm.... but cup wise, its still da same.... when she wears her 36C bra her boobs are still splling out of it... so she's still a 34D, in order to cover her whole boobs.... haha... yea she's getting hotter... and i'm getting hornier.... haha... so whatever...

We both signing up fo Singapore Marathon... doing da 10km category... my target is sub 45 fo da 10km... I'm eyeing below 45mins... let's see how lah.. i did New Balance Real Run last week... it was 6km road, 2.6km beach, 2.4km trail.... da beach was a killer and since its been ages since i ran, my timing was a disgrace of more den 1hr 10mins.... haha.. Din was under 50mins.... Zek came in before him.... so i gotta redeem myself in singapore marathon 2005.... i'm putting my target to do da 42.195km in Singapore Marathon 2006.... i'm gonna make it a personal mission to do da full marathon next year.... yea... anyway tiz sunday me and baby girl and din, doing Army Half Marathon.... me and baby girl doin da non competitors' 6km only lah.... chill ah... Din will be doing da 12km... so its all good ah...

ok ok, i tink enuf of my shit.... i'm so fucking sleepy.... and oh yea, to all da peepz who gave me birthday wishes, THANKS ALOT!!! LOVE ALL OF YOU!!! haha.... and to Baby Girl and Noraida, "Thanks for da presents"... hehe.... okok i'ma outta here... PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

International Commotion Explosion in London

2005-07-09T01:10:00.000+08:00

International Commotion Explosion in London

Commotion from Explosion in London, they call it Terrorism

Iraqi kids dead from American missiles, its a War for Freedom

haha da world is so full of shit, fuck myself with a condom

price for peace, people actually buy dat shit, they sold em

fighting a war for peace, is like fucking in order to preserve virginity

if dat makes sense den i guess i wana run fo presidency

coz Bush is president, when he's juz cowboy slang-ed chimpanzee

and there's sum dumb fucks who keep bombing places, making it harder fo da muslim community

da holy book said NEVER harm civilians or a retreating Enemy

Suicide bombing and sabotages, homie u need to change yo strategy

get da right target, one shot one kill, big fish, save your energy

not da civilians u SICK FUCK, u making life harder fo da muslim community

ah fuck it, da world is already fucked, juz dun touch my family

i'm juz trying make a living and blasting my own poetry

words are weapons datz da only thing u do as an emcee

da world is in a sick state and i juz wanna be a capitalist

as i watched my brothaz one by one drafted to by da police

when emcees rhyme, they juz want da crowd to get crunked

but when i rhyme, i'm trying to be da malay donald trump.................

Peace Out....................................

Ps: Juz a random rhyme, got inspired after watching channel newsasia at my workplace juz now during my breaktime....

Blueberry yum yum yum yum yum yum

2005-07-07T13:39:00.000+08:00

Haha.. i was blog hopping and came across this girl's blog and she was streaming Ludacris ft. Sleepy Brown "blueberry Yum yum" and i got addicted to this k.... haha.. solid shit... Anyway juz wanna do an official announcement.... I OFFICIALLLY FOUND A JOB!!!! haha.... yea.. sumtin i applied 2 mths ago... At air port doing cargo side... baggage shit.... let's see lah ah... i tink its gonna be cool.. gonna start later today.. Baby Girl also got a new job and gonna start next month... She's leaving her fucked-uply managed ward... The nurse managers are soooo FUCKING UNPROFESSIONAL..... imagine ganging up against a particular staff juz to get her into trouble.... So Fuck da SGH's JCI accredited bullshit.... Y glorify yo accreditation when yo managers arent even making the cut... after what they did to baby girl, nah i completely lost respect fo those fuckers... so wateva.... juz hope those few bitches would burn in hell...

so anyway, on a diff note, this morning i sent off irfan to da airport... da dude is doing sum biomedical degree in Australia.... ALL DA BEST BRO GOOD LUCK!! :) haha..

Since i got a job now, i bought 2 new stuff fo myself... i bought a book written by Donald Trump bout 'The Art of Deal Making'... fascinating shit... and i also bought Ahli FiQir's album 'Hari Ini Dalam Sejarah'..... Its HOT!!.. haha... yea datz bout it... will update again soon.... Peace Out...

Asmaradana...

2005-07-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

anyway today is my 15th month-versary wit Baby Girl.... love her alwayz...... we're not celebrating tiz time round coz i'm busy prep fo my mid sem...... studying econs tonight.... let's see how it goes.. i'm listening to Tiara Jaquelina's 'Asmaradana.... shit.. its hot!... i tink she's even hotter den her song!.. haha... hot milfs... hmm.. maybe i can do my own remix of tiz track... let's see how lah ah... haha.. okok... my lil cuz Nash is applying fo sports school... i hope he'll make it... dat dude got talent in soccer.. we all saw it as soon as he learned how to walk back den... so its all good ah....

Da other day me and Nik went fo a guided tour at SAE... School of Audio Engineering Institute.... it has so many branches world wide, so europe, americas and so on.. their main hq in australia.. Da school is cool as shit... 2 yrs fo B.A. (Hons), Recording Arts..... we checked out their studios and curriculum and stuff... its so industry-tailored.. so save me da bullshit of learning all da theory and shit... i made up my mind to do dat....

Congratz to Fida anyway.. haha she's on Taufik Video fo NDP seh.... Much love fo dat.... POWER!.... she's a dancer fo those who dunno... so yea its all good..... ;) Woooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway a couple of dayz ago i checked out berita harian and they were featuring bout tiz AMP Scholar who is got a place in NTU.. Yea he's respectable.... he was from EM3 den went to Normal Tech, went ITE, den went SP and graduated with an Engineering Diploma with Merit (so he automatically got a place in local uni).... Well done... but i tink he's an Asshole..... Y?.. because he's applied NTU thru da CCA entry, when he already got a place thru academic entry.... He didnt give a chance to those kids whose only shot to university is thru CCA.... Asked him y he did dat... he said dat he juz wanted to see wether his CCA commitment can earn him a place there (Mat, lu fikir ni fun-fair pe, nak masok university sesuka hati mak bapak kau).... coz i personally have one of my brothaz who applied NTU thru dat CCA entry and was denied a place... thanks to fukaz like him..... and i swear my member who applied have a fucking outstanding CCA record.... and when u check wat CCA dat AMP scholar guy was shining at... it was fencing... WTF??.... of coz u whould shine in dat sport coz only so few ppl in dat arena... everybody will win sumtin... u go fo dat kindda comp, balik balik same orang.. coz its da same few ppl fighting it... its a stupid sports fo rich kids who are too fragile to go under da sun.... if u do sports like sports climbing, soccer or rugby etc or sumtin... u are competiting with so many individuals... if u are recognised as one of da elites, u gotta be good.... my member is good in wat he does..... haiz.... sumtimes when u have too much intelligence, God forget to give u common sense.... haha.... ok enuf of dissing him... he's going NS this Sept.... So any of u who happen to be in da same unit as him in NS.... tell him dat he's an asshole..... haha.... ok yea datz bout it... PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Turn, Check, Bang, Check, Left, Right, Left, GOOD DAY!!!

2005-06-28T00:10:00.000+08:00

Haha... watz up wit da title? nah.. i dunno... i juz feel like blogging an entry today... yeap its a good day today.... early morning met up baby girl and had breakfast at Afghanistan (Sum non-eastside kids mite be wondering wtf afghan?)... its her off day today and tmr... so we went to have breakfast.. den she accompanied me to skool and sit in my macro econs lecture... she fascinated wit econs... knowing her, she gonna love doin tiz kindda shit... stats, econs etc... she's flirting wit da idea of doing Dip in Biz Studies at Ngee Ann next yr... a switch from her nursing career... its all good lah... as long as she's happy and she knows wat she wanna do in da long run.... Long run?.... ok enuf of econs.. anyway, after sat in da lect, we went to SAA to settle my extension of tertiary EZ link.. sum cock up seems happening... so i'm like wtf.... they better sort it out i need da freaking concession..

den after SAA we went to da library and watched DVD '12 Storey'.. sum local shit done in da 90s.. good shit, very realistic tho abit draggy.... den i went off to econs tutorial and she entertain herself in da library.... after my 1hr+ tut meet up wit her at biz den went to da stadium and slack there fo awhile before we start sum running.... its been so long since any of us ran... so we only did 2.4k den went shower and we're off to makan at kampung chai chee at Tampines.... ate there den followed her to survey hp prices.. she wanna get new hp....

Den send her home..... and took da long train ride home.... watch sum tv... called baby girl regarding tmr's plan... and here i am blogging right now.... Its been peaceful today... its all good... Mid sem test coming, my only paper, macro, is on this coming monday.... and oh yea, i signed up fo anotehr rappelling display fo NCC Day Parade... haha... this time i'ma take real pictures of trgs and performances and gonna put it in my portfolio... coz when i look back at my portfolio, it seems like there's a lack of physical evidence fo my rappelling involvement ah... but its all good... let's see... tmr, i'm gonna do sum job hunting summore... it seems dat i cant avoid entering F & B line again... its not my thing tho... but i need da job man...... no shit.... okok, i'm done.. i'm listening to Game's 300 Bars track right now.... he's dissing roccafella and G-unit.... they been fucking ard wit him too much, its time to bounce back.... okok enuf of this entry... GGGGGG-uNOT!!!!!

Stupid!!

2005-06-25T23:09:00.000+08:00

one of da most stupidest shit happened today... last night i cant sleep so i did sum recordings all da way till 5+am.... in other words i didnt sleep da whole night... so at 5+am went to sleep tinking dat i'll be up soon so i can go fo da Black Eyed Peas Rap 4 a cause audition at 12pm.... but wat da fuck happened was dat i overslept... woke up almost 2..... so frustrated like fuck ah... haha.. it wasnt meant to be i guess..... ah fuck it... wat i heard is dat Hafiz and Richard entered as a team high chance they winning it... Mad respect ah... Richard got crazy punchlines and Hafiz's flow is crazy.. i like their shit... so its all good ah... they were da finalists fo Street fest and richard was da champion anyway...

and guess wat.. i bumped into Maia at da petrol station near my house.. Maia, as Maia da Hot Milf from SG idol... damn, she's even smaller in person den on screen... her tattoos are hot by da way... its not those 'half-fucked-member-aku-bikin-kan' or da 'i'm-a-good-girl-hoping-this-tattoo-will-make-me-look-wild' kindda shit... haha... she shud get signed.... if i was a label head, i get her signed... tho her vocals are alright and made fo uptempo beats, her personality and attitude is da bomb... which will make her marketable i believe.. they juz gotta create and carefully potray da image of her dat they wanna sell.... she's gonna be big.. blossoming school girls would dig her... guyz would dig her coz of her figure and da bad-girl-in-yo-face-attitude.... clubs will play her shit coz her vocals are for uptempo kindda shit... get FHM to make her their cover page girl and shit.... make sure market her international at MTV level, coz SG market too small ah.... yes its not da politically correct thing to do... but den again if everybody is politically correct and go, "oh we cant do dat, its bad influence to da kids", if everybody thinks like dat, there will be no Eminem... There will be no 2Pac.... There will be no hip hop... there will be no rockstars... shit... music develops best when its politically incorrect... we cant always be listening to mummy's boys singing and saying "sayang mak" everytime right?? haha.... yea.... speaking of which another crew dat should get signed and dat da malay record labels are dumb enuf not to get em is 'Ahli Fiqir'.... they're hot shit!.... SG giving em love... M'sia radio embracing their shit... even Indo is enjoying their shit... their club tracks and cool but their street tracks are crazy.... their lyrics are deep... they shud analyse ahli fiqir's lyrics at malay litreture level, man.... haha... ok ok enuf me.... i tink datz bout it.... PEACE OUT!!! ;)

Marc Ecko Hip Hop Fest

2005-06-22T02:04:00.000+08:00

Sum shit coming up... Damn, ppl shud check out da DJ battle is cool shit!!

24 Jun - Turntablist Finals @ Cineleisure (7pm onwards)
25 Jun - Breaking Battle Finals @ Cineleisure (3pm onwards)
25 Jun - Black Eyed Peas' Rap 4 A Cause @ Zouk (5pm onwards)
25 Jun - Dance Battle Finals @Cineleisure (7pm onwards)

ok yea its all good now.... my Macro Econs mid sem test is on 4th july... now few things fo me to do till before term test....

Complete Sociology Online Quiz and muz go watch 'Money No Enough'
Prepare my Arts History Presentation
Revise my MacroEcons Mid Sems

Other things to be done is to settle my part time job.. Sembawang Music Center gonna call me in soon, so let's see how... i'ma register fo my Class 2b next month and i need to get my Napfa done at Toa Payoh Stadium..... Hmm... ok its all good... i tink datz bout it... PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy birthday 2Pac

2005-06-16T17:41:00.000+08:00

Supp ppl.... yea its 2Pac's b'day today.. if da dude still ard, he'll be 34 yrs old.. its all good.. R.I.P. 2Pac... Anyway, i'm having an interval in between my arts appreciation tutorial and lect... so its all good.. i dunno if its juz me or wat, my tutor looks extra hot today so its all good.. and i'm in lab 2 rite now, there's tiz freshie on my left who is super HOTT!!... haha ok ok enuf of tiz shit.. i'm attached fo God sake... haha.. Rite baby??!!... its all good.. Nik and adnan use to tell me, "U may be on a diet, but dat dont mean u cant look at da menu...".. haha... much love fo dat quote... i finished my collage already i even put a verse on it.. I got da instrumental of Jay-Z's 'The dynasty', and vibe wit it and came up wit a verse lah.. so yea.... its all good my theme was 'Wars in My Head'... its all good... i gotta do my socio online quiz and my artist presentation shit fo next two weeks... so its all good.. i applied fo a few retail jobs but got no reply.. mite be trying fo cinema shit... let's see how it goes lah.... been a long time since i touched my producer kit.. gotta do sum recording soon or sumtin.... juz paid my skool fees juz now and its all good.. yea i tink datz bout it.. PEace OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PS: i didnt go Spec Course Phase 2 tho....

da hardest so far....

2005-06-13T08:03:00.000+08:00

Waddup.. my muscles are all aching from yesterday's ATC.... Damn... Dat was da hardest race i've done so far... it was a good experience... 20km+ of cycling on fucked up terrain and more den 10km run den da kayak.. but da kayak wasnt so bad, i died on da biking part... coz my bike or actually its my dad's bike, meant for transportation not fo racing or dirt or stunt biking ah.... so wit a fucked up terrain, it really tax yo thighs and shit... my thighs gave way at nearing da end of da 2nd phase of running.. i had to sit down fo quite awhile coz i cant walk at all... its coz of da biking lah dat my legs went fucked up.. but its all good.. haha.. moral of story: good bikes make alot of difference in adventure races.. and our teams were'nt prepared but den again all of us signed up fo da fun of it ah... haha.. and when u do tiz kindda races or activities, datz where u see everybody's true colours.. u noe, dat sort a thing.. haha its all good... but i'm happy ah... and Congrats to 'Nutellas'!!! haha.. their team got 8th position.... Congrats to Fida, Yasser, Hapy, Fandi... Their team is da bomb.. haha.. its all good..

anyway my unit camp wen smoothly (wat do u expect, i'm the OIC wat... haha jk)... along da way we had sum friction wit da scouts camp.. so wateva lah its all good... i intereacted alot wit da Part As or Sec 1 cadets lah... i did IFC lesson, Screw up their bunk inspection, telling them ghost stories before their night walk and dat sort of things lah... haha... but from their appraisals all these kids enjoyed da camp to da max... so ok lah i dun expect ppl to quit NCC from tiz batch... I'm going for Spec Course Phase 2, tomoro... all da way till friday... i'll MIA along da way to go skool lah... so its all good...

Shaz bbq was good lah.. i enjoyed it... its turned out dat shaz broke up wit her bf, dat anti-social dude... and bigger sad news is dat nik is no longer wit irma and they split coz of they had no other options kindda thing... hang in there dude.. i feel u man... damn, its crazy....

I'm signing up fo the Black Eyed Peas Album launch's 'Rap 4 A Cause' comp... its seems interesting lah... on da 25th afternoon at Zouk... so lets see wat happens ah... haha..

unit camp

2005-06-07T14:21:00.000+08:00

WATZ GOIN ON IN THERE!! (*echoes).... haha... okok.. been a long time since i update.. ok... hmm.. lemme see.. i'm going fo my unit camp later at 8am.... back to Greenview man.... alot of shit to do... 3 dayz 2 night Part A camp.. so ok lah... vanan will be ard... it aint so bad coz i need to dissappear every now and then coz i need to be rushing back to TP fo tutorials... so its all good ah... den on sunday is my ATC.... Adventure Trail Challenge conducted by NTU... its an adventure race consisting of rappelling, running, cycling, swimming and kayaking... it covers more den 20km and to be done within a few hours ah.. its a team event.. so my clique send in 3 teams ah... My team name is 'Toy Soldiers', inspired by eminem ah.. haha... Yati, Fauzi and Izad is in my team ah... so shud be alrite... i hope everything goes well... skool been great.. i did my macro homework... yea i did my homework.... haha... its all good.. i got my arts appreciation collage to do... its part of da coursework ah.. exciting ah.....

Baby Girl's bond wit SGH gonna end on 20th June... she gonna apply fo NYP Nursing Oct 05 intake... i hope she'll make it lah.... She's down wit sum urine infection shit... her left kidney area hurts lah... but its all good she's recovering... so ok lah.....

ok, now i need anybody whose reading tiz' opinion.... i'm tinking of doing a degree from La Salle... i wanna do a BA in Music Technology... they gonna teach u every single thing u need to know bout running a studio ah.. from producing, recording and mixing and etc... they train yo senses and shit... its fo da music and media industry lah.... so i'm tinking of doing dat.... coz ultimately i wanna run my own label... bizness aspect, my diploma in marketing can cover lah..... technical aspect, i can run da studio wit dat degree... i dun need to hire sound engineer and shit... all i need is to sign artists.... produce, record, mix, and market their shit... radio air play, club play, get their vidoe clips into MTV, wateva ah.... at da same time shud things go fucked up fo me here... i can go overseas and rock their music industry ah.... so watcha tink... i juz wanna get general opinion from ppl lah.... so watcha tink?

sore....

2005-05-31T00:29:00.000+08:00

i'm back from camp and did my show... went skool and met baby girl... and i feel very 'sore'... fo sum reason i dunno y.... i juz feel 'sore'.. dunno how to describe it ah... juz 'sore'......

181st Airborne....

2005-05-27T02:31:00.000+08:00

Its kindda sad... i was so hype up to go fo tiz yr's airborne but decided not to... fo those who dunno, its recognised by SAF, during da course u'll be doing 3 parachute jumps ah.... da course would be 3 weeks during skool semester.... its too risky ah i'm on academic warning... if i fail econs i'm gonna get into trouble wit da skool ah... so if i go fo da 3 weeks i scared i cant pick up back ah... i'm not da best students ard u see, so let's not be too ambitious hoping dat i will pick up after missing 3 weeks of skool.... so i was tinking alot bout it last nyte... and i juz feel sad bout it.. coz it has alwayz been my dream to do airborne in my NCC life.... but juz unfated i guess... tiz was wat happen fo da past few yrs...

2001: I was turned away at da selection coz i was not yet 16..
2002: I was turned away at da salection coz i couldnt get da principal's signature
2003: Ready to go but it was cancelled coz of SARS....
2004: Decided not to go coz it was during my final yr proj shit... .
2005: Too risky coz on academic warning ah....

So i guess i do better watching more peeps getting da wings every yr lah ah... haha... sad ah.. but its all good.. everything dat happens, happens fo a reason.... so anyway its all good...

1st week of skool is a blast! haha... i'm doing MacroEconnomics, Arts Appreciation, and Intro to Sociology.... No big deal fo Macro... I'm gonna rock Arts Appreciation man... haha.. its fun!! reminds me of creative writing.... but i tink tiz one gonna be more fun.. Plus my tutor/lecturer is da HOT MILF!!!! haha... juz dat she's not married yet... its all good... haha.. Damn She's Hot!! i got no reason to miss her class now... hahaha.... kk... and Sociology is interesting, its my kindda thing ah.... ok, ppl dunno tiz... but tho i hate studying... i love reading.... esp when it comes to ppl and world history.... i love reading about civilisations, colonization, how olden societies back den work... so u can talk to me bout how roman empire works to da colonization of the americas to the native red indian tribes dat roam dat area.. how da romans and greeks started democracy and idea of republic...talk to me bout dif dif wars all da way to da time of da crusades... and i enjoy reading autobiographies too.... Gandhi, Mandela, Saddam.. hmm.. who else ah... basically datz da whole idea ah... surprising huh?... haha... gonna rock tiz sem since i not going airborne.... so its now, Skool, Job, Girlfren, Music (not in order of merit.. haha..) and oh yea, me and baby girl doing as usual, fighting almost everyday and make up after dat... so yea wateva....

i'm going fo a camp later at 7am at sentosa... i'm getting paid fo tiz one... all da way till sunday.. den i head down straight from sentosa to cineleisure fo my audition fo street fest... if i make it, i'll be performing dat night at cineleisure stage, its da qualifying round.... i'm doin da Rap comp... 1st price $1000.. i'm bringing on 'Irreversible Change' ah... let's see how lah ah... idea is to bring da emotional attachment of da song.. yea.. its all good ah.... kk i need to get sum sleep now... take care peeps.... One Love to da world.... haha..... PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Beats fo sale??

2005-05-10T11:37:00.000+08:00

Can i get a Woot!! Woot!! ~~~ haha... a few things been happening past few dayz... friday evening, went to watch fida's GEM concert at TP.. it was good shit... fidah look cute like little girl in da blazer during her item... (Dogdeball nye pompan kape??.. haha..)... met irfan, long time neva see him... den after da whole thing meet Shairul and Vanan... "WHERE MY DOGZ AT?!!!" haha.. miss those fukaz.. so we did sum catching up till late....

den on saturday morning, i went to do blood donation wit Zek and Yasir... but sumhow my blood was rejected fo da 2nd time... coz da moment my blood was flowing into da bag, i lose colour, became pale and shit... so da nurse deceide to abort it... den spoke to da doctor, he said i got sum vertigo shit... my body cant accept sudden loss of blood since i'm not scared of blood or needles... so i'm strongly advised not to do anymore blood donation coz it will be unsafe... i'll be one of those dudes, who'll die in an accident coz of sudden loss of blood.. coz once dat happens it will be very fast before i knock out.... such a weak muthafuka.... lembek siol... even my gf tinks i'm lembek... but its all good ah... haha... this is one of da many things i cant do... den in da night, met up wit Din to accompany Zek do sum volunteer job at Far EAst Square Fitness Planet thru out da nyte... so datz wat we did.. few ppl from my clique was there... played all sorts of dumb games thru out da nyte.... and i finally met Zek's Raudha... yea she's beautiful... da way she laughs is funny lah.. haha.. its all good...

den at da break of dawn, dat sunday morning picked up baby girl from work.... went breakfast and sent her home.. i went home and slept flat ah.. woke up and slept again on and off till da next morning ah... which was yesterday... i finished up 3 home recording tracks already... 'Irreversible Change', 'Monstaz of Education' and 'Seize Da Moment'.... u can download da tracks from my soundclick page... gonna submit dat 3 tracks fo my demo fo street fest.... Price money fo first place is a $1000 sia... fucking crazy...

Here's da plan... i'ma release my '42 Irreversible Change EP' of 6 tracks next month... juz gonna let it circulate in da scene and on da net... u can download it off my soundclick page... and i'm also gonna make beats fo sale... upload da loops in soundclick page... gonna do 10 beats at $50 each... first come first serve basis, mail me ah... i'm gonna advertise it when i'm on stage so these kids will notice it... den go beats-society to advertise it.... i'ma make sure its real bizness shit... coz i got shit my local producers before.. call themselves this production that production.. wateva man... shove dat up yo rectum.... so tiz is da real shit.. i wont take yo money if i cant commit... i let u listen to my shit first, if u like it den u pay me....

anyway, my dad's fren suppose to call me within tiz week.... its a long term part time job ah... airport shit.... so its all good ah... i still contemplating to apply fo airborne course or not... let's see how ah.... i havent been running sia... anyway Zek climbing 'Gunung Tanan' tiz weekend.. they say kinabalu has da highest peak but tahan got da harshest terrain... sumday i'm gonna do both of em lah.... so far i only done Gunung Ledang aka Mt Ophir... so let's see how lah... n oh... Good Luck ZEk!!... haha... shit, i still gotta submit ATC and Gold Cert form and Fadli's Airborne application form.... kk datz bout it... PEACE OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Irreversible Change Lyrics

2005-04-30T01:45:00.000+08:00

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/3/farhan42music.htm
here's da link to da webbie... click on da first song.... anyway here's da lyrics...

Title: Irreversible Change
Artist: Farhan42

~Beat drops~

Abortion?....

... Farhan42, Irreversible Change... there are things u wish u didn’t do man......
*clears throat*

[Verse 1]:
I'm sitting alone, in the dark/
Wished that there are things I didn’t start/
But mistake done, can’t look back/
Gotta keep going and accept the fact/
We were one mad couple madly in love wit each other/
Always playing and fighting wit each other/
But we always make up, such a sucker for each other,
I swear we willing to die for each other/
Making love like we always do,/
I'm a pleaser, I only do it if she ask me to/
She came but this time I misfired/
For the first time, I misfired/
Soon her period didn’t came for 3 weeks/
Shivering, I followed her to the clinic/
All of a sudden the whole world look stagnant/
She came out and say she's 6 weeks pregnant *echoes*/

[Hook]:
There are things in life u wish u didn’t do
Dun judge us coz u don’t know what we been thru
I guess life will always be full of pain
Whenever we wanna change an irreversible change

Irreversible Change (irreversible change *echoes*)
Wish we could change an irreversible change
Irreversible Change (irreversible change *echoes*)
Wish we could change an irreversible change... Uh...

[Verse 2]:
Stuck in a fix, stuck in a dilemma/
Wondering how we got stuck in this drama/
By right having u it’s a blessing,
but somehow it got both of us stressing /
Can’t picture telling both our families now
coz we just let too many people down/
was so stress felt like running away
but running from problems wont make it go away/
Not ready for u, gotta get it removed/
Went down to KK to get it removed/
Spoke to the counselor that I'm still a kid,
but I'm now responsible for killing my own seed/
Its not that, we dun love u/
It’s just that, we're not ready for u/
Daddy know u gonna grow up and be strong and tough,
but keeping u daddy just wasn’t man enough/

[Hook]

[Verse 3]:
Op done but didn’t end the stress/
Hugged her and let her cry on my chest/
The hospital call it a T-O-P /
It’s Termination of Pregnancy/
I can’t give a damn whatever they wanna call it/
Coz now I really have skeletons in my closet/
Only 19 but I'm carrying such a sin/
But it’s my mistake for not staying clean/
Let God judge me, in this life of sin/
coz if he thinks we deserve it, he'll let us in/
Let others say whatever they wanna say/
coz its us who live wit the guilt everyday/
what more can I say, we gotta live day to day/
God forgive me for what I've done yesterday/
Can’t figure if would be a boy or a girl/
Forgive me for not giving u the chance to see the world/

[Hook] *Repeat and fades

~End~

"Wars Come and Go, but my Soldiers stays eternally.."

2005-04-29T01:10:00.000+08:00

Went to watch Triple-X juz now... Ice Cube plays XXX now, and it was a bomb ah... i like da movie ah.. Ice Cube as an ex navy SEAL lieutenant sentenced to 20yrs imprisonment and shit like dat but he was da last resort... but da best part was dat ice cube used tiz quote, "Wars come and go, but my soldiers stays eternally"... n guess wat, dat quote was from 2Pac... haha! fo Real!.... damn, dat shit is deep man, da quote..... haha, but its not surprising coming from 2Pac.. Street soldier, thug life poet type of shit.... and earlier on today, i downloaded one of Game's videos, sum DVD shit.... its a 6mins clip where they were freestyling and shit.. and Game ended his freestyle with sumtin like... ".... oh and one more thing, I dun take a bitch out to eat/ u gotta pay fo yo own meal but da dick is free/.."... haha.... when i first heard dat, i blasted into laughter.... haha... da was a hot punchline coz i was feeling it.... c'mon, i had a bad experience back den when i went out wit tiz girl once, and i had to pay fo everything from da movie to da meals.... haha... usually i dun do dat... c'mon, i'm broke as fuck and i wasnt a working adult or sumtin back den... but she made me do it and thank God i had spare cash... Zek warned me bout it da night before lah.. so its all good... haha...i should have said dat ah back den... u have to pay fo yo meal but da dick is free... its part of da package and im ready.... hahaha... learning sumtin new everyday.... kk enuf of my shit, i gotta get up early tmr morning.... Peace out!!!!!!!!!

Movies...

2005-04-21T14:04:00.000+08:00

SUPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! alrite alrite.... let's see watz been happening.. hmm.. completed NCC AI Course already... was ok lah.. not too bad.... me and baby girl still fighting and making up as usual... i'm still worried bout certain issues.... anyway, yea i publicise bout my gf boobs and shit like dat... yea i'm crazy bout her boobs, cleavage and ass and i wont lie... and she noes tiz, datz why she would tease me wit those stuff (goyang sak iman.. haha.. ) c'mon u would be please if yo bf is crazy bout yo body wat.. itz my way of flattering her, and she's cool wit it, she's shamelessly proud of her assets, rite baby? haha... i mean, c'mon its not wrong to fantasize bout my own gf rite? rite?? RITE???? haha.. kindda funny coz ppl was asking me like, "how can u say dat? how did she react to dat?"... haha its all good... on a different note, i'm waiting fo my dad's fren to call me got sum lobang fo job sumwhere at air port.. so its all good... shit i need da money i owe mum $200 and owe baby girl $100.... first thing i'm gonna get is my Hugo Boss Dark Blue, coz its finish fo quite sum time... i've been depending on da scraps of my old addidas cologne and my nivea deo stick..... I can be very messy and sloppy but sumhow i'm very conscious bout how i smell ah... so yea been using dark blue fo da past 2 yrs... sum ppl recognise da smell as my smell... shereen ever told me she registered dat smell as Farhan's smell... and so does my gf lah.. so yea, i like da smell too, so i dun intend to change it anytime soon ah... its all good...

Now i feel like talking bout movies.... if u dunno, i'm a movie freak... i'm a music lover and a movie freak.. so when i watch a movie in da theatre or at home, i wanna have da most minimal interference... i would ignore calls and stuff... i would glue my eyes to da screen and not miss even a second of da movie and get into da feelings of da movie... Coz u gotta have da maximum effect of feeling every emotion in da pictures... u not only watch and listen but feel da movie... its a feeling.. sumtin intangible... datz where u develop da satisfaction of "damn, dat was a good movie...."... and dat sort of stuff... or u would go like, "damn! dat shit is sad sia....".... i hate thrashy love movies but could get eyes watery watching war movies... sum movies they would give quotes that would give me goosebumps and i'd be so impress bout it... certain complicated movies i enjoy watching liek 'Butterfly effect'... dat was crazy man.... if i got alot of money i'd be watching every good movie in da theatres and buy tons of VCDs.... maybe when i'm rich i'l buy myself a movie theatre ah.... haha... yea.. so its da emotional aspect of da movies.. i guess its da same when it comes to music too.... they say music is reflection of self..... yea ok datz it...

oh btw, Zek's having sum problem bout da enlistment issue.... i wish u all da best bro.... i hope it'll work out.... yea datz all fo today ladies and gentleman.... Peace Out!!....

Skool 2!!

2005-04-16T00:12:00.000+08:00

Suppp PPL!! hmm... its been awhile since i updated tiz shit... yea.. da issue datz been bothering me, its kindda pending at da moment... so i dunno.. let see how it goes... lately things been going quite my way.. my results came out i got straight Cs... and i'm happy... haha.. yea... meaning i got only 3 subj to do in my extra sem.... den today i got my letter dat i gotta report to Tekong BMTC Skool 2 on 10 june... but da thing is i got another sem to do, i'd only be done in sept... so i'm going to skool and CMPB tomoro to differ my shit... kindda happy dat i'm getting my ass in da army rather den Police or CD, coz datz where i want it to be lah... so ok lah... Da North East CDC gig at pasir ris was a bomb ah... it was hot... haha... was very entertaining ah... been working out my music shit quite abit myself.. currently working on a song 'Irreversible Change', its gonna be my bomb track.. its gonna be my first internet single... circulate it and shit... so yea... my dad now hooking me up wit his member who works in da air port doing luggage or sumtin... datz gonna be my temporary job till skool reopens... yea.. oh yea Zek is in Jogjakarta doing his first overseas comp, representing SG rock climbing national team siol!!... haha.. ALL DA BEST BRO!! do us proud alrite... so yea datz bout it fo now, i'm getting a job, my results are fine, i'm getting in da army, working on my 1st internet single, zek is at overseas comp, baby girl's boobs are getting bigger, tinking of joining SG street fest... erm wat else.... hmmm.... yea i tink datz bout it fo now... thank you for yo attention.. Peace OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

reversible...

2005-04-04T23:19:00.000+08:00

I would like to first thank everybody who gave me and baby girl well wishes during our anniversary.. Thanks alot guyz!!... anniversary went superb... haha... i gave her da song, she was happy but she wasnt touched (as usual ah).. My lil sis Farah listened to it and found it so sad and touching.... but its a normal thing fo baby girl, every girl will get impressed wit wat i did fo her except da girl i'm suppose to impress... haha.... its all good.. i love her.... on da weekends, both events went well ah.... da commendation day went fine... met up wit da old boyz..... halim came down.. haha... but didnt talk much coz him and his parents was in a rush... all my old cadets did sum catching up wit me.. its all good... Affirmation ceremony, we managed to rocked da indoor stadium.. haha.. power!!.. my inverted rappelling went on fine wit da SBO and rifle... so its all good... baby girl was wit me on both events... so power lah.... now NCC done.. its time to find a job and get my EP done...... but at da moment, i'm stressing over sum issues... tiz is serious shit...... i dunno man.... haiz... juz gotta sit back n talk to God ah.......

Here's da plan...

2005-04-01T01:39:00.000+08:00

Fuck.. tiz is da 2nd time i'm writing tiz entry.. i wrote so long juz now den got errors... fukaz.... ok i got back from rappelling camp den went to greenview to watch their last commendation day rehearsal..... its fucked up ah.... not dat fucked up but fucked up enough.... theri actual parade is tiz saturday juz before my rappelling thingy tiz sunday... anyway i juz got back home n juz finished packing up fo tmr... ok here's da plan ah..

Tomoro- Go friday prayers wit barang2 den go Greenview and drop off my number 3 uniform there... den meet up baby girl and go beach road to buy her stuff fo her family bbq thingy.. i'm overnighting there.... we celebrating our anniversary there..

Saturday- Its our anniversary btw..... From there, den hang out wit baby girl den off to Greenview.. She accompanying me... Parade starts at 6pm, cadets fallin at 4pm, GOH fallin at 8 am.... i'll be in my no.3 uniform lah.... yeap den send her home... PAsir Ris to Jurong brader!!!!!!!!.... haha.. its all good.... den go home and sleep...

Sunday- will be in HQ in da morning fo Affirmation Ceremony.... Its da actual day fo my rappelling shit.... da event is in da afternoon but gotta do last practice b4 actual thingy.. and i still suck doing inverted rappelling.... shit... hopefully can fix it.... tiz will take up da whole da already.. baby girl wanna come along.. but i dunno if i can get da invitation card.... anyway after dat i'm home...

Monday- I'm tinking of spending da whole day at home to finish up my home recording EP... i'm aiming to finish up my home recording EP by tiz end of tiz week and pass it to imran... i got ard 5 tracks or so.....

Tuesday- Gonna check out da PSA job... da lasher thingy.... it pays well ah.... keep it rolling man... ~Ey! Muz be da Monay!!~(feeling Nelly pulak..)...

suddenly looking at my schedule i feel like as if i'm looking at Zek's schedule... haha.. almost ah.... Zek is like one of da busiest dudes alive man... run wit da wind, life on da fast lane.. haha.. rite Zek?? ( i noe u'll be reading tiz.. Peace!!!).. haha... yea... so i tink datz bout it... kk i'm gonna start writing.... i'm doing baby girl a song fo our anniversary.... she dunno tiz... (thank God she got no internet access at da moment) i'm using da beat i bought from FreakyZ last yr.... F Word Production... he shit on me fo sum reason.. so i cant perform tiz song in public lah.... but its a beautiful love song shit... so fuck it.. i'm gonna do it my way and do it fo Baby Girl.. i paid fo da beat after all.... kk, now i'm feeling sleepy and groggy but creativity juice sitll gotta flow..... Flow muthafuka FLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... alrite... datz bout it... Ladies and Gentleman Thank you fo yo attention, have a Good day.... Peace OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

X Gon' give it to ya

2005-03-30T14:19:00.000+08:00

Sup!!!!!!!!!!! kk i'm in a rush now.. i'm suppose to be at my rappelling training camp.... but i'm still home... was trying to finish my remix fo da rappelling display... i kept re doing it, coz i keep tinking it sounded like thrash.... i put 'X gon' give it to ya', 'Mission Impossible Instrumental Soundtrack', 'Bring me to life'... i laced it wit da instumental of 'Get it on da floor', da drumz and shit.... So anyway, after da camp, me n baby girl will be celebrating my anniversary tiz weekend... 1 yr already siol.. time fly fucking fast.... den da next day is da affirmation ceremony, my rappelling shit... damn, i better perfect it... i still suck doing my inverted rappelling..... yea datz bout it... a few dayz ago, i manage to finish up another beat, i call it 'When i come back'..... da typical Farhan42 beat, its very street, dark and depressing... haha... so its all good.... its unlike da happy intensity beat dat ur listening dat i'm streaming to my blog rite now... n i still searching fo a job... maybe i'm doing dat lasher thingy at PSA.... they paying well ah... kk gotta run...
Peace Out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

speakers....

2005-03-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

Its been good so far.... i finish writing da lyrics fo da intensity beat..... i now looking ard fo jobs lah... mum got her member to pasang me fo a job a air port.... one of my fren telling me bout adecco...... den baby girl's fren's fiance telling me bout da PSA job... its all good lah.. i gotta get a job man.... i borrowed $50 from mum to buy speakers.... coz my speakers i pass it to my lil sis already... i wanted to get da creative tech's speaker wit sub woofer and so on... coz i neva had one n i tink i need it ah... it will be convinient to compose da bass of da song ah... and it will sound better.... but now da problem is dat... i had $100 after borrowing from mum juz now... da cost of da speaker dat i want is $79..... den went out n stuff.... now i'm left wit like $60+.... so no speakers fo me at da moment ah..... its all good...

currently i'm a lil stressed bout sum stuff..... i dunno man....its juz so uncertain now.... but its all good ah... ;)

Datz how u like it huh?

2005-03-22T11:30:00.000+08:00

"Datz How u like it huh?".... haha... Beyonce ft. Jay-Z... datz me and baby girl's current fav song.... its all good.... its been quite aweek.... me and baby girl was having sum form of crisis but we're resolving it slowly, its all good..... Last Week, NCC Challenge Quest, East District Champions again!!!!!!!!!!! woohoo!!..... EASTSIDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haha... yea we got second for MOC/Cycling, First for Archery, Paintball and the 104km relay Run, so we're da overall Champions!! haha.. it was worth it.... Anywayi got sum lobang fo sum job... doin sum customer service shit.. so its all good ah.. yet to check it out....

Been trying to put creativity juice to work lah..... i mixed We Aint (Game ft Eminem), X Gon' Give it to ya (DMX), Bring me to life (Evanasance)...... Remixed by Farhan42... its for my Rappelling display lah, 20mins non-stop music dat would suit da activity..... so its all good.... btw, i forgot to tell, i actually got a new phone, my Nokia 2650 fo $0... haha.. upgrade my line fo another 2yr plan, so ok ah....Dad called his member to fix da comps in my house... all my comps are recycled and fucking old... haha... but survivng ah... den dat guy put router in my room.. so sumhow can link internet to all da comps.. cool stuff!! haha.... so wit da new fixed comp in my room, i installed fruity loops and so on.. so last nyte i was fooling ard wit sum sound samples and manage to come up wit a beat.. yea datz da one dat i'm streaming at my blog rite now.. watcha tink of it?.. ;)

Btw, i still havent got stuff fo baby girl fo our first anniversary next month.... shit.....

APE MAU EXAM.............................haha.......

2005-03-17T02:25:00.000+08:00

Damn!! haha... its been awhile since i updated my shit..... Watz going rite there... i hope everybody's doing well.... hmmm..... wat?? u busy preparing fo exams???.... Ape mau exams... haha... wasting time only.... haha... kk fo those who seating fo exams, good luck on dat shit k.... anyway i'm already done wit skool... fo tiz semester at least.... if u dunno, i have to do an extra semester to graduate, not enuf credits... so study hard and dun be like me k... yea... past 3 weeks been crazy lah.... was going to cheryl's crib fo projects and reports den after dat week was preparing fo presentation..... den now i'm pretty much occupied wit ncc and ppl's passing ceremony.... haha.. cool shit.. but at least tiz one's fun..... NCC wise, i'm wit da Rappelling display Team... we doing rappelling in da indoor stadium on and artificial tower fo affirmation ceremony.... Sum doing juma, heli-rappel, Bounce, Walk, Australian, Buddy etc.... me and Zek doing inverted rayppelling lah... i still yet to master it ah... its 10 meters lah... not as high as pasir laba's rappelling tower... its fun lah...

I'm gonna get a job tiz holz... sumtin dat can give me $1000 in a month..... Let's see how lah.... Anyway i went to watch Guang's Passing Out Parade at Tekong today.... his family memberz cant make it... so he called me.... kesian pulak.... so i didnt hesitate to say yes n went there and took pictures fo him and put on his jockey cap fo him.... alwayz down fo them homiez.. haha love brothaz to death... they say bitches can say they love u yesterday, throw tantrums today and leave u tomoro... but its yo boyz dat will stick wit u till da end.... they yo real memberz fo life.. haha.. datz da truth ah..... so neva tink dat a pussy is more impt den a brotha... datz da shit dat makes u weak... "kalau dah kangkang smua sayang", datz nik's quote..... haha.....

anyway, last week i went to watch Vanan and Din's passing out parade at PA.... i'm losing hope in NS..... its so unpredictable lah... i'm not gonna put much hope on dat shit.... My clique shines in CCA and their BMTs but they are not going where they wanna go.... Din is a good example...

tink about it, he holds a higher nitec cert, Pes A, Gold Napfa, perfect eyesight, Senior Cadet Lieutenant, Airborne-trained, was in rock climbing, dragon boat and adventure club, was working at coffee bean part time, no police records etc......... His application was turned down twice by SAF before he was enlisted.. he was ready to sign on wit Guards or ADF...... told da recruitment center officer dat he really wanna sign on and dun wanna go police or CD.... but instead they smash his dreams by sending him to PA.... but he took it positively and work hard so he can be sent fo SOC (Special Operations Command)..... and he did well at PA.. he got Best in Operations and Fitness Award in his squad.... marksman and shit.... he got his Officer Commanding's recommendation to go SOC.... he was going to sign on if he get into SOC.... his hopes was so high..... but in the end, they send him to sum Police division HQ at ang mo kio or sumtin... he'll be one of them mat mat police who will screen kids at da void deck in da middle of da night... meaning he cant go SOC fo now..... he dissappointed ah coz 7 of his squad mates got into SOC... he performed better den thembut he dun qualify wit em.... looking back... i dunno wat he lacks... he got da papers, fitness, apptitute and so on...... army didnt want him, police throw him ard.... and he was willing to sign on.... i lost faith in da system and dun wanna hope too much... i dun wanna go CD or PA..... its not my colour.... other stories, Shairul who got Best Trainee fo his platoon was dissappointed dat he didnt get sispec but became medic instead... Vanan who passed thru Commandos selection and willing to sign on, was sent to PA instead of army.... Taufik, airborne trained and was from SP dragon boat, got his squad's best trainee and studies became airport police instead..... and all of em are former NCC CAdet Lieutenants got shiny CCA records and shit... so i dunno where they gonna throw me... maybe they mite put me in CD or sumtin... i dunno, i've seen these good dudes getting dissappointed coz they juz cant get into their dream careers..... so be it lah.... let see lah ah where they gonna send me.....

yea ok... enuf of my shit... its 2am and i got a race later at 9am.... i'm outta here... PEACE OUT!

2 More 2 GOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-03-09T02:55:00.000+08:00

Haha... Finally!!! i'm done wit all da fucking projects... 2 presentation done... its 2+am now... my next presentation is at 9 or 10 am later..... den thursday is my last presentation..... goddamn.... next monday is last day of skool... gonna miss da peeps here..... My projs are all done, tho we wasted a fucking hell lot of time of editting and re-editting and re-editting strategic marketing report and global marketing.... being fussy we hardly had time fo entreprenuership and IMC.... so waddahell... fuck it its done anyway.... i'm so glad to get over n done with tiz shit.....

i'm participating in tiz yr's NCC Affirmation Ceremony at da indoor stadium next month... we gonna be rappelling from a wall inside da indoor stadium.. so i'm doing it again... Rappelling Display Team, like NCC DAy last year.... so its all good... now gonna be quite occupied with da rehearsal as da actual event is only next week.... kecoh ah... i'm also runing fo EAst District in da 104km thingy... i'm doing da relay race on 17 march.... no big shit lah its only 1.5km relay.... so ok ah.. now i'm back in ncc lah... i intend to go back to Greenview on fridays.... Gonna give back to da community.. u noe wat i mean?.... haha... cam mane nye fierce...

Now, i personally do a shout out to my Baby Girl... for da first time, Baby Girl is sooo very very understanding to me coz i'm so busy wit my projects.. i've been camping at cheryl's hse wit my grp mates doin prooj etc..... before tiz, everytime i'm so occupied baby girl gonna throw tantrums and be such a bitch saying dat i not spending time wit her and blah blah blah... tiz time, she's so sweet dat she's understanding my situation.. THANK GOD FO DAT!!... haha... yea... n i'm so proud of my girl... She's behaving so maturedly now.... Love u baby!! ;)
and oh speaking of her, she got A2 for the O levels E Maths paper she retook last yr... its her 3rd attempt tho but still... she got EL - A2, ML-A1, Maths - A2, History - B3, Science - B3, POA - B3, CCA - A1..... L1R5 - 14 points wtf.... on top of dat she got Cert of Merit from her ITE.... no matter how much i hate tiz academically inclined fukerz, i end up wit a gf dat is da typical academically inclined sort... haha... God has a wicked sense of humour.... wateva it is CONGRATZ BABY!!.... she wanna do Diploma in Health Science(Nursing) at Ngee ann poly or Dip in Nursing at NYP.... she gonna do da january intake ah after her 2 yr bond wit SGH is completed tiz july..... So my hot nurse is going back to skool lah....

speaking of skool everybody is surveying universities and so on lah.... Zek manage to get an interview wit NTU coz he wanna do Psychology... Good luck bro!! datz crazy.. If i am to do a degree, i'll go fo SMU's Bachelor in Biz Mgt... da shit looks good... but den again, with a GPA of 1.28 or so, haha..... i look at myself in da mirror and i tink lets not waste money and time fo me to do a degree.. haha... fuck dat shit.... get da fuck out of skool and go out there n do sumtin fo myself... even having a degree wont gaurantee dat i gonna make millions.... in fact i mite not even get a job thus wasting da money i spent fo universities.... da ultimately da goal is to be a self-made millionaire before hitting 40..... not da Fye-kinda-millionaire... datz bullshit... i mean u really have da cash in yo bank.....

i'm getting groggy now... so fucking sleepy..... datz it.. i'm outta here.. Peace out!!

TP Jam N Hop 2005

2005-02-28T16:39:00.000+08:00

Keywords: Temasek Polytechnic, Jam N Hop, Open House, 2005, Security guards, head of Security, laser pointer, misconduct, harrassment, unethical behaviour, Farhan42, fuck the head of security, SAA Carl........... So this entry will appear on search engines world wide..... Let it be known...

Ok this is sumtin dat happened 2 saturdays ago during TP Open house.... This year they decided to have a Jam N Hop going on... N da event was happening ah!! Very very well done lah.. da beatboxing dude from design skool rocked da crowd.... Triple Noize did their set with Fai from X'static.... it was fine... Pug jelly was there but they got so many haterz lah.... half da crowd wasnt feeling them.... den came da party segment, where da soundman juz played hip hop tracks and let da crowd dance n groove to it..... everything went so perfect ah... me and my clique, ard 10 of us and baby girl was having enjoying ourselves ah..... it was at da open space near da koi pond.... anyway, so after sum time in da party segment of da show.... da crowd was so crazy n it got warm lah.. so me and baby girl was at da back of da crowd, we stand alone ah.... ard 4m radius, there's no one else ah.... so we were juz grooving to it, and i sucked at it coz i dun dance u see.. but we had our fun..... so anyway, den sheereen and arisiti joined us after fo a few minutes, so da 4 of us were together, den they left, and fidah joined me and baby girl.... so while fidah was wit us, i saw sumbody was using da laser pointer n start shining on baby girl n fidah but it was more on baby girl.... it was coming from my back, so i can see da laser on them but they dont notice it ah.... den fidah left, leaving juz me and baby girl on our own so we were facing each other and the laser pointer was on her i can see it but she didnt noticed it.... and da laser pointer was zooming in on baby girls boobs and was there for like 10 to 20 seconds.... n dat happened twice... n it irritated me....

Thinking dat it was coming from sum other students i turn ard and immediately saw da culprit ah.... he was sitting on da concourse level wit a few guyz between da library and design skool... so da culprit was able to oversee da whole place.... da moment i turned ard, when he saw me looking at him, he quickly switched off his laser pointer n looked away..... u can instantly see da guilty reaction.. so i waited for da fucker to turn ard to my direction again, n flashed my middle finger and i made sure he sees it... so after dat i faced back to da front n resume doing my thing tho i was feeling a lil pissed off... but it didnt stop he continued to flash da laser pointer again, followed by torch lights on us for a couple of times.. and i continued to flash middle finger again and again... coz we were like right under them and we are not even part of da crowd, we were alone, so he was targeting us....

Den one indian security guard came and approached me, n asked me y i showed signs to da guy on top.. by tiz time i was already pissed off.... i started screaming at da top of my voice, so dat he'll hear me above da loud music and explain to him dat da guy wit da laser pointer was harrasing my gf.... he repeatedly flash it on her boobs.... so he said dat i shoudnt do dat..

den i asked him, "So wat did u expect me to do?"

he said, "do u noe who is dat guy?"

i said, "i dunno and i dun care... he is trying to be funny wit my gf"

he said, "Datz da head of security"

i replied, "den in dat case tell da guy to be more professional, tell him wat he's doing is wrong.. coz i saw da guilt on his face.. it was obvious... he wasnt even man enuf to look at me.."

i told him dat i will bring it up to da CEO or da mgt or sumtin.... so he said, go ahead den bring it up... so i said, ok i will, take down my particulars and remember my name... so he took my name and i/c number and walked off.. by this time my clique already came up to me and asking me watz going on... so i told da whole story.... n it spoiled my mood, i was not in da mood to groove or shit like dat.. i'm completely pissed off... so later on i obeserved da head of security, and watched his actions n he still points at ppl wit da laser pointer... den one chinese security guard den approached me and said, "hey brother sorry fo da incident juz now".... i said, wether is he da guy, he said nope... den i said forget it i'm taking it personal.... so fuck him... baby girl needs to go off.. so i send her off to her cab.... n she went off.. i asked a few ppl who do i complaint to and all of them said da SAA.. Student Affairs and Alumni....

On dat Tuesday i finally spoke to tiz Carl guy and told him wat happen... he said there's nothing he could do as security is not his side.. and dat it was an accident, and da laser pointer was juz at random... and he was trying to assure me dat from dat spot up there, there was nth much to see as it was dark.... i said, fo God sake we were right underneath them i can see him, he is sure to see me.... he was checking out those big boobs bouncing to da beat..... coz no shit, da fuka was sure to see dat..... muthfuka..... so carl didnt budge and he said dat it was not on purpose and blah blah blah...... n he said dat i got a very weak case as there's no concrete evidence dat he was shining on us but the security guards have witnessed me flashing my middle finger...den i realised dat i was wasting my time... so wateva.... its too late now..... now dat fucker did da shit and walked away free....

My greatest regret was dat i should have controlled my anger more and think clearly... and go up to da guy and confront him there n den.... at da moment dat didnt even came to my mind... i was juz so pissed off..... lesson learnt, shouldnt have relied on da system... should have taken matters into my own hands.... da moment he fucks ard, make sure i fuck him back wit wateva reasons.... den approach da system n report abt it... so wateva decision made, da muthfuka wont walk away freely...... n dat Carl dude was so full of shit too... so yea.. wateva.... its all good ah.... wat goes ard comes ard, u'll get yo share sooner or later on yo wife or daughter or sumtin... yea, n i'm including tiz incident into my song.... btw i finished writing my 'It dont stop now' lyrics..... oh yea and.. "FUCK DA HEAD OF SECURITY"....

Secrets in da dark, only u and me noe
i saw da bitch in yo eyes, u juz couldnt lift off
i turned ard and saw u looked away
not even man enuf to look at me, ey?
i should have taken matter into my own hand
i should have juz followed my own plans
should have blasted u there and then
n settle u wit my own hands
its ok coz karma says, wat goes ard comes ard
dun worry, u'll get yo share bitch! den u'll noe how

........... Farhan42 letting it loose..... Peace out...

Better dayz is coming homie......

2005-02-18T10:10:00.000+08:00

I'm going crazy wit da skool work.. next week is my term tests week... da following week i got 9 deadlines..... den da following week is my formal presentations week..... cant wait to end my final yr in skool... yea coz its taking its toll on me slowly.... Last nyte had sum quarrel wit baby girl... nah, its not da routine one.... sum major shit... she was being such a bitch yesterday but such a sweetheart tiz morning..... but its all good we sort it out already... we're happier now...... i hope things would get better now..... anyway i scraped my whole reality bites song..... suddenly i find it like thrash, so i redo da beat n gonna re write da song... yea.. so i'm streaming da new beat on my blog at da moment.....

2Pac's 'Thugz Mansion' (da acoustic version) and 'Better dayz'.... play this song back to back n close yo eyes.... vibing to it..... i picture myself walking alone down da blocks with da morning sun showering my face.... walking at da side of da road towards the junction.... watch da cars zoom past... watch mothers carrying trolleys after their shopping at da wet market crossing da road.... look at da amount of ppl waiting fo bus at da bus stop...... juz walk n walk n walk......... no stress no worries.... no worry bout work... no worry bout how much money left in my wallet.... no girlfren troubles.... nobody to disturb u..... juz peace..... u juz need sum time alone..... juz da giving time to yoself.... but then again, i guess this would juz be a fragment of my imagination....... dun worry better dayz is coming homie..... juz keep da faith up n pray fo better dayz.....................................................................

datz da beauty of hip hop i guess, u juz have da right song fo every emotion..... maybe datz y i dun like emo rock songs... they seem to alwayz be about failed r'ship or bout u being a loser n nobody understands u n keep whining bout it coz ur supposedly going thru da worse life in da world... no disrespect to da music, juz dat its not my choice of song...... whereas on da hip hop tracks, u maybe poor or broke, ppl discriminate u coz of yo race, ppl disrespect u or wateva, ur family is going thru sum fucked up shit.... ur still a soldier n bounce back n dun be such a crying whinning pussy....... keep yo head up, stay strong and alwayz keep yo eyez on yo goals...... its all about making money n yo family living well....

Peace Out................................................

Vday??.. wadeva..

2005-02-14T20:40:00.000+08:00

Yeap its Vday, but i'm at home da whole day... not celebrating it... i dun celebrate vday like how i dun celebrate christmas... yea... so me n my gf doing our own stuff, ..... anyway, i juz streamed da latest track dat i came up with... all da songs i come up wit sounds depressing, alot of ppl say dat.. sumhow it became my trademark... but i'm still trying to come up wit a happy track.... i recorded a burp sound, den recorded my lil sis Farah's vocal, she made her say 'SG Hip Hop', den i had it all over da track... so i sampled my sounds from my sis... maybe i'll post da lyrics sum other time.... anyway, pardon me for da poor quality of da recording.... its home recording lah... no noise filter and watsoeva.. so yea.. datz da best i can come up with.... wat u guyz tink of it??

this is da hook/chorus:
"Everytime i rhyme i see da sign
Bring Reality with every rhyme
i spit da truth with every line
wont stop until da end of time
Everyday i watch life pass me by
thank God fo blessings in my life
i noe dat u'll alwayz be mine
but still Reality Bites...."

Anyway i juz cant wait to finish tiz sem... 4 more weeks till da last day!! haha.... trying to clear all projs asap.... n napfa is on da 26th of tiz month... shit... i havent been running coz my ankle is still not yet fully recovered...
oh btw, i havent been updating much coz my internet got sum connection problem lah.. so i dun have internet access....

And i wanna take tiz time to give shout out to da soldiers dat laid down their lives to defend SG during WWII... da Malay Regiment was wiped out at their last strong hold sumwhere in pasir panjang in 14 Feb 1942.... da next day, 15 FEb, da Brits surrendered SG to da Japs.... So today marks da anniversary of the lost of da Malay Regiment, there was only a few companies of them, ard 300 men.. they manage to finish off ard 1000 japs or so before they were slaughtered.... dat should be ard a battalion of japs or so... fighting to da last breath... one of da platoon commanders was da legendary 'Leftenan Adnan', he was da one who came up with da 'biar putih tulang jangan putih mata' or better known as 'Death Before Dishonour'... yea.. so one love to all da soldiers no matter wat war they fighting, no matter which frontline they fighting.. one love to all of em.... to all da fallen soldiers, rest in peace... have a moment of silent fo these ppl... Fo da Askar Melayu of WWII who laid down their lives for SG many years ago on this day, al-fatihah.....

............... Peace Out.....

Multiple Orgasm

2005-02-02T02:10:00.000+08:00

I'm giving Multiple Orgasm to all my projs coz i'm sure fucking da shit out of them... anyway i'm juz writing tiz entry to wish Baby Girl a Happy 10th Month-versary.... We been thru quite a bit... it was neva a smooth sailing thing eversince day 1... Her attitide problem sets in... den Her pussy ex bf dat was so hard fo her to let go, came back in da pict.. but i got da girl in da end.... her illness, hospitalization and so on.... all da fights, arguments, yelling, slamming of phones, pushing each other away... da bitching and etc..... den all da love we made, from all da things we did together.. all da stupid stuff we did together... haha.. like sniffing each otehrs underarms juz to catch da other party's smell... haha... times when i would say dat ur fat and make fun of u... and when i dun tease u, u would go like, "Baby, is something wrong? are u bored with me?".. haha... Times when i made u cry and melt coz wat i did was so sweet.. all da rhymes i wrote fo u.... times when u would juz brighten up my day.... too much stuff to mention... its all good... i love u girl!!! and i'm still obbessively crazy fo u!!!! haha.... yea..

Baby girl look like gummy bear in tiz pic... hehe... I still like her nose stud lah... i tink its nice...

Anyway, i manage to purchase The Game's 'Documentary' LP... Da shit is hot!! this thing gonna be a classic album... Listen to Game... He got range... And all his shit is straight from da heart... From da song for his son to his gangsta shit to westside story... he's a complete emcee lah... He's not glorifying gangsta shit like 50 Cent, his hustler's past. its more coz he had no choice but to do wat he did.... he's not rapping bout stupid creatively sick ways to destroy da world like Eminem... Game, his shit is real... can come up with the most touching track to the grimmiest track... This gonna be like a classic album ah... But 2Pac is still number one.. his my all time favourite... Game is my current favourite..

This album is my playlist while doing projects fo da moment..

Yea datz it... Peace Out!....

Platform 5

2005-01-31T21:22:00.000+08:00

Baby Girl was making noise bout my earlier entry... She wanted me to put up her pic with Bonafide n i didnt.. haha... so here it is... Platform5 pics... Da show was hot!!... ;)

Me and Imran

"Gotta Seize Da Moment, Mic Check, uh!"

Me on stage

Me and Baby Girl...

Me and Fai, One of X'static memberz.. i tink his name is Fai lah...

Baby Girl and Ram.. He was da host with Imran....

Baby Girl with Bonafide!!... haha.. Fo those who still dunno, Bonafide is Taufik Batisah's crew before he made it big.. They were big in da scene and still is...

Peace Out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SP has Dip in Music N Audio Tech!!! Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-30T00:02:00.000+08:00

WAT DA FUCK!! SP now offer Diploma in Music and Audio Tech!! Argh!! i'm jealous!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn.... these ppl will learn how to produce music, n all da studio shit!! arghh!!! i almost lost my sanity trying to figure out on how to produce a track.. summore i dun play musical instruments... so i make music, base on my sound judgment, trial n error... n i had nobody to mentor or guide or teach me how to use da software to do it... i even had limited sound samples and wateva music i make sounds da same... my first few performances i performed tracks dat dun even have bass... coz i didnt noe dat ur suppose to have bass on a track... ah neva mind.. fuck dat shit.. hopefully this will give a boost to da local music industry.... but at least when i look back, i use talent at its rawest... its so raw dat it has no guidance... juz deliver wit wat u have.. against all odds... from broken speakers... computer crash thus destroying all dat u have worked on.... virus infected comps... trying yo best to make things work... waddahell... anyway Platfrom 5 last week was HOT!!!! da crowd was crazy n all and all da performances was great... Dat shit was good lah....

Skool been busy n shit... projs non stop.. as tiz is a short sem, juz 7 weeks.. so everything is a rush ah... datz y i havent been getting a job either, scared i ant manage lah... yea.. paid my skool fees last week... mum had to pawn summore jewelry... to help clear sum bills... come i'll tell u watz da deal..

mum's a housewife n dad is an insurance agent... plus he's been trying so many other ventures.. sum didnt work.. sum didnt get along n shit.. he's juz trying to make it... da problem is dat, he was shining doin insurance den times went bad and he was affected den out of nowhere there was sum mistake in one of da policies dat he sells... tiz affected almost all da other agents in da company... such a way, dat he suppose to pay 5 digit figure back to da company... n he's like huh?.. how we suppose to do dat.... so they had sum disagreement n shit but da bottomline is dat da agents are suppose to pay back dat way.... n if they cant, their monthly salary will automatically be cut n their debt will be reduced... so they wont be getting their pay until da debt is cleared... so he's stuck... so da whole of last year we got no income... so credit card company been chasing him, car, HDB, water n electricity bills.. we have to pay cash for HDB coz their CPF have been depleted... this house i'm staying in is da 4th house i lived in since i was young... so we been shifting house n shit.. trying to cover back da CPF shit... anyway, da bottomline is dat our family is struggling... struggle wit daily expeneses... i dont claim back from my parents when i pay fo sum skool shit or wateva coz i noe dat mum herself need da money.... no cash n juz keep it to yoself... when i saw my uncle n aunt n grandparents came over n offering to clear da credit card bills coz didnt wanna declared bankrupt, tears flowed down.... i felt humbled... a few times u juz lie down in bed n let da tears flow n wish dat yo family wont have to go thri tiz... but its all good, growing up like tiz, u watch da harsh reality of life... its da hunger for more.. things dun alwayz go yo way but datz da way it is.... datz where i'm gonna start sum shit n make my family rich n swear dat my family will neva be broke again... it juz fuel da fire..... now u noe y my earlier entries are like dat... da song dat i write are like dat... it inspires me at da same time...

yea... but wateva it is, i'm still smiling tho... there are ppl who go thru more shit den tiz... den i want them to noe dat i'm with them.... keep going n stay strong.. haha.. yea enuf of tiz emo shit.. i'm outta here... Peace Out!...

Pes A

2005-01-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

The past week been crazy... rushing thru reports n shit.... anyway, i did my NS Medical Check up.. everything went smoothly, i was putting like 101% into da vocational assessment test... haha.. cracking my brains out.. i got a Pes A... its all good... den a day before my NAPFA test, i twisted my ankle while helping mum.. Merepek siol!!! hahahha.. yea, right ankle swollen, so cant do da test.. gotta book another date lah.. yeap.. n oh yea, wishing all muslims SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA...yea... one love to all muslims worldwide... n oh yea, Platform 5 is tomoro.... performances starts at 1530hrs... My slot is at 6pm.. da tix is $10.. Guest perfomances by Trivalation, FreakyZ and a few more.. cool shit.. b4 i end tiz entry, i juz wanna tell my baby girl dat i love her so much.. yea.. n congratz to my bro, Halim for da field promotion.. haha... due to sum case he did he got da promotion.... Inspector siol!! haha.. yea..

Peace out!!!!!!!!!!!!

Run! Run! Run!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-14T11:58:00.000+08:00

sup!!!!!!!!!!! haha.. waddahell, my body been aching like mad, coz i've started running again... 2 dayz straight... da other day, i was already in skool since morning... den finish group discussion, followed Shaz to Tampines stadium to get tiger cup tickets.. den we went to TM to check out breadtalk fo our proj n shit... den call up baby girl, she's busy in her ward so she called me back moments later.... den she was saying, dat she's jealous coz i'm juz wit shaz at TM n stuff like dat.. but i'm like c'mon, its shaz siak.. we're memberz.. shit dun happen... n yes i wont deny shaz is hot, but i dun fall fo her lah... i'm not like yo ex bf who falls fo any girl who is nice to him.. haha.. weak pussy muthafuka.. i'm not like dat... i'm in biz skool... u work wit babes everyday, but u dun fall fo em... speaking of which, its been a long time since i did any catching up wit Denise... we both kindda busy wit our things.... oh n yea, i dunno watz up wit Halim... been long time since we lepak i dunno if he's ok or not, coz noraida been talking to me... n she's sad n broken n i am not much of help ah... n like yati said, havent been hanging out wit my clique... times like this i wish we all got personal transport... but den again, we dun have dat much money tho... so fuck it... ;)

anyway so when me n shaz got back to skool, izad n hanif joined us fo da run.... managed to push shaz to cover 2.4k.... i tink thru out da session i did a short 5 to 7k.... da endurance still there ah... juz dat no power ah... shit rusted siol... damn.. i dun wanna go PTP! haha.. will fix dat ah.... so after dat sheereen joined us n we all washed up n made our way to Tampines Central.. n i wasnt wearing any underwear.. haha.. free n easy coz after da shower, i didnt bring xtra underwear... baby girl called n i told her dat i'll be hanging ard wit my bankrobberz at da coffee shop near my crib but actually i was rushing to outram.. i wanted to surprise her n pick her up from work... she was at GW dat evening so she ended early, no need to pass report n shit... so i was kindda late but managed to catch her at da platform.. haha.. n she was so happy bout dat... den i pass her da orange top dat i bought her (yes its cheap, but it was affordable fo me).. n she was smiling n pleased wit it... haha.. i hope she'll appreciate it, i was in skool da whole day, body aching from training but yet i rush to meet her n see her home... i miss her datz y.... gave her sum love n was on da way home.. another long trip from jurong to tampines... haha... fell aslep on train n so on... da normal stuff... went home, did sum research, finish da beat dat i was making... i'm tinking of going fo da red dot squad audition tmr... i dunno.. see how lah... they look kindda big n they're juz starting up....

and da orange top, it looked decent n shit.. even sheereen agreed wit me.... but when she met me yesterday, Damn!, da orange top still can see her cleavage... shit... i got da rite size but sumhow da cleavage was still exposed... i guess its juz too big huh.. (she gonna kill me when she reads tiz.. hehe)... a bomb 36D, wat else can a man ask fo?.... ;)

Peace out...

a bomb 36D wat more can i ask fo?
i would only ask fo an encore
coz i cant get enuf of dat shit
i cant get enuf of dat bitc....
no! no! i mean i cant enuf of those tits
haha, c'mon, its not crime
to fantasize bout yo own gf in yo rhyme................ rite?? ;) haha...

Broke and PISSED OFF

2005-01-09T01:03:00.000+08:00

guess wat, i'm broke again

i guess da tribe have spoke again

i'm pissed off my patience been stripped off

ticked off, lemme let it off on a CD

now where da hell is my Marshall Mathers LP!!!?

try walking around town wit no cash in hand

juz ez link to transport u so u cant spent

if u can spend cash, go home n claim from yo parents

good fo u, coz dat is sumtin we cant do

sum dudes juz throw tantrums n mummy buy u a new bike

i tink mum cant even get me an MP3 player even if i go on a hunger strike

family's struggling, be a man, n u need a job

but F & B is not yo thing, still searching fo your spot

even skool is not on my side

academic probation to academic warning

i dunno wether i'll be graduating

i've done trying hard

but i tink its juz dat i'm not dat smart

walking past simei, walking past midnyte

walking home thru da nyte datz da point when u cried

its like shit is not working out no matter how many times u tried

u juz get tired of life

u juz wish dat u get fired from life

but no matter how bad, dun forget to smile

count yo blessings dun emphasis on da stressings

sit back watching muthufukaz get splurging

get motivated dun get jealous

coz Pac said, "Born wit less, but ur still Precious!

Smile Fo me Now!!", so smile wit me now

remember to smile even when ur down

its a cure to da misery its a cure to yo insanity

y be such an idiot to spent hundreds on slippers

but none on sneakers

da bitching problem is alwayz wit da shoes

fo once plz invest in a shoe

rather den spoiling my day like u alwayz do,

datz y i love u too

anyway if dad really gonna lock me out plz do

coz one thing fo sure no one's stopping u

i'm a survivor alwayz bounce back from any setback

so spare me from yo threats spare me from yo crap

spare me from da bullshit datz y i rap

its beyond da surface its beyond da smile

its beyond da space its beyond da mile

its where da real true feelings quietly resides

but i guess too much pride, u will neva noe how we really feel inside

... Farhan42 Peace Out.......

till my death my final breath no matter how hard it takes
6 figures in 4 bank accounts datz how much i'm gonna make.................

She Drives!!

2005-01-06T01:28:00.000+08:00

WELL DONE!! haha.. Baby girl juz passed her Class 3 TP.... so she can drive now... She got da complete Class 2 and 3 now... she can ride n drive fo real... next year go get bus liscence k baby?.... haha... yeap!! congratulations baby!! yea datz bout it... ok back to my SIP Report.. Peace Out!!

Welcome 2005!!

2005-01-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2005!!!

Ladiez and Gentleman welcome to 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha... sorry, lagging ah... anyway, we didnt go anywhere fo da countdown coz me n baby girl agreed not to celebrate it... we saw da tsunami catastrophe shit.. n its like, siak je... tu bukan ape, kiamat dah nak datang.... its all warning signs... abeh masih ade hati nak buat maksiat beramai-ramai... check out da world map, we were juz lucky dat sumatra is located where it is... they are da ones da block da waves from hitting SG.... if dat shit was to hit SG, Singapore already sunken siol... its crazy.... anyway last heard, death toll is 125 000... and Singapore managed to come up wit $15 million so far... God bless evewrybody....

on 2nd January 2005 me n baby girl juz turned 9 mths... its all good... spent da morning wit Zek, Din n Shairul.... been a long time since we meet up... all catching up... attachemnt, NS, gf, etc etc... was slacking at Tampines S-11 food court ah.... i miss all those fukaz... haha... i love my brothaz to death... we even took sum pics summore.. haha... den baby girl was making noize coz i was late mtg her... she started throwing tantrums as usual.. and i'm like c'mon, its not everyday i spend time wit them wat.. i miss them... so i met up baby girl at outram.. pacify her gave sum love and she was alright.... we watched 'Seed of Chucky' at Tiong Bahru Plaza.. ulu siol.... da movie was gory datz all, den we went Queensway to get sum stuff n met up wit Aisha(baby girl's lil sis) and Is (her bf ah.. Duh!)... sent her home n datz it.... enjoyed da time wit her...

baby girl got sum problems dat maybe she cant go NYP next yr... hmm.. so we're like tinking of a Plan B and C... so we keep it going....

n today was da first day of skool n it was great!! haha... happy to see everybody.... Biznes Skool havent been running out of hot chicks since i left.. they're still there!! haha... its all good.... shit... i havent started on my SIP Report.... ok, Peace Out!!...

lets have a moment of silence....

2004-12-30T10:39:00.000+08:00

b4 da moment of silence here's wat i gotta say......

Tmr is my last day!!! ATTACHMENT FINISH!!!! haha... i learned alot from tiz place ah... from fucked up management, a sleeping director, cleaning condos, consigments, movers, i-dunno-who-suppose-to-do-tiz problems, ppl kissing ass n sucking up... all da dirty tricks ah... haha.. its very valuable coz i intend to start my own label myself in da first place dat was y I cam here fo attachment.. so now I juz make sure dat my company wont run like tiz one. tiz is like one of da worst mgt dat I've ever seen ah... But it's a good experience, da only bad thing bout tiz place is dat da pay sucked big time.. its all good...

i juz had a haircut yesterday which cost $8... gonna collect my new specs at Queensway tiz Saturday.. I spent like $70 on tiz one.. so I hope it'll work... N I juz cleared my M1 bill datz been accumulated over 4 mths.. M1 wanted to take legal action already siol.. datz troublesome ah... Dad gave $150 to clear da bill I feel bad ah, coz he needs da money. but I'm paying him when my pay comes.. he seems a lil stress.. I dunno how da property shit he's handling is working out or nt.. mum still haven't get a call back from da air port ppl.. So dunno if she gets da job or not... n I need a part time job in 2 weeks time... Hmmm..

On a different note.... let's have a moment of silence for da victims of da killer tsunami.. from sri lanka, all da way to indo... my heart goes out to them.. when u follow up channel newsasia, u feel them.. so many of them one particular dude was wit his family n got swept away... he was crying in front of da camera, coz he cant find his wife n daughters now... there was a particular scene where a souldier picking up a floating body of a 6 year old boy.. all bloated n stuff.. its sum sad shit ah... over 60 000 dead, millions missing n homeless.... let's have a moment of silence... n say a lil prayer for these ppl... God bless them all...

*prays*

....... Peace.........

burp!

2004-12-23T11:13:00.000+08:00

i already got a flow to my 'Follow no Man'.. finished writing da verse 1 at my workplace da other day, and i already got idea to do verse 2... i juz started doing a beat, and i sample burp sound... i call it 'My Burp Track', so i got sumbody to burp, recorded it n put it like part of da music... haha.. i got ideas for dat song too.. ;) anyway i wont be contactable fo da moment.. i'm tired of using half-fucked HPs... so i'm happier witout a hp... u feel more free anyway...

Baby girl juz got a PDA phone... dat shit cost 1K++.. her rich uncle from overseas juz got her dat stuff.. sum latest O2 shit.. sum ppl juz got all da luck... anyway she got a new toy, dat'll keep her occupied n shut her up for quite sum time... hehe...

anyway, a few nights ago, baby girl was feeling bitchy ah.. n we were arguing bout me not picking da fone when she calls all da way to da day i didnt met her to do da recording... i blasted back... den after awhile, i dunno y, suddenly my throat went real bad... n i was fucking sleepy... so i told her, "Ok baby, fine its my mistake... i'm sorry k... dun be angry alrite... let's not argue please.. i'm sleepy n i got a sore throat i'm tired of tiz shit...".... being such a bitch dat night, she said, "i dun care u talk to me now, i bingit ah... blah blah blah...."... but we resolve it sumhow.. so next morning, i'm still feeling pissed off ah... still considering wether to meet her dat evening, since i rather go home n sleep ah, not enuf slp wat.. skali in da evening, she call me saying dat she's got a bad headache at her work place n she's been puking... so suddenly, da anger dissappears, da sleepyness dissappears... juz rushing to SGH and wanting to see my baby home... gotta get baby girl home now... its juz love now... yea.. met her, gave sum love, n see her home.. we took a cab from SGH to her crib... den after dat i took a cab home myself.. from jurong to tampines, coz my head was spinning ah.. i'm such a sucker fo her lah ah... haha...

Next week is my last week working at tiz place... cant wait for it to come... finally i'm out!!! haha... i'm tinking of hitting up imran and ask him if he got any lobang fo any sales job... i gotta get a part time job next sem while skooling ah.. i need da money.. yea datz bout it... Peace Out!! ;)

I dream...

2004-12-20T11:06:00.000+08:00

Da other day me and Ed went to Nik's crib... we did sum recording fo Ed.. He wanna do it fo sum girl dat he like.... interesting shit.. so i'm feeling producer, went to nik's crib after work, wit my $6 PC Microphone n my thumb drive dat contain Fruity Loops, acid pro and other sound samples... So i'm suppose to record n mix those stuff ah... haha its all good.. so we recorded sum stuff... Nik sang, Ed sang, Ed plays guitar, nik plays guitar, i produce n mix.. feeling linkin park n Jay-Z collabo ah... haha.. we did like 3 tracks within dat few hours ah... damn, datz like professional artist speed ah.. if only it was a studio tho... lol... i brought back one of da track to finish it at home... its a remake of Radiohead's 'Creep'.. wat a song sia.. emo sia.. haha.. so i did a remix of da track... i finished it ard 5am last nyte.... i put in da drums, strings n rhymed on it.... funny as hell ah.. so on dat track is Nik Insane, ED and Farhan42 collabo.. haha interesting shit... we're fukaz who cant sing but think we can.... haha.. its all good... at least 'I dream'....

"If u have dreams believe in it.. Thank You Singapore"- The 1st SG Idol....

haha.. its all good... Peace out

tiz one's fo My Baby Girl...

2004-12-17T02:49:00.000+08:00

I juz cant stop tinking bout u

coz my mind got a permanent imprint of u

I maybe occupied and not call u

but u noe i'd do anything to spoil u

I love u, u noe i'll alwayz do

Love da way u get pissed off and blow off yo top

trying to test my patience, u juz wont stop

sumtimes when u being such a Bitch, i feel like smacking your face

da next moment i feel like Making Love to u at dat very same place

fuck da public, u noe ur my taste

my cute racer chick wit big boobs whose rocking my faith

u noe ur my strength, u are my weakness

u are my cure, u are my illness

u are My Only One, u are my dearest

mami's a teaser n i'm a pleaser, now tell me who gonna stop both us?

call us, call Lust, call Love

tiz is muthafukin Everlasting Love

i make u go crazy coz u said i got da softest lips

i want u to be da lady dat'll bear my kids

not gonna let us go broke, i'll make us rich

whenever i get on my knees n talk to God

ur name is in my prayer n in my thoughts

Only God Can Judge Us in tiz life of sin

coz if He tinks we really deserve it, He'll let us in

baby, i'll hold u tite, i'll hold u SO Close to me

so dat one can EVER take u away from me

sumtin u can neva do is to rewind time

so, Farhan N Baby... Till Da End of Tyme........

Datz Baby Girl on her bike back den.... she's been riding fo 3 years or so... she stop riding fo da moment coz of getting caught over illegal racing shit... datz my girl alrite.....

My cute witch...

peace out.....

tiz company is so fucked...

2004-12-13T10:41:00.000+08:00

For those who dont noe, i'm currently attached to tiz company whose suppose to be selling t-shirts and organise events.. but instead, wat i've been doing is, a lil bit of marketing... den da rest is becoming movers, cleaning condos, wasting time in da office n planning fo projects datz not gonna work.... i've been moved back n forth among, Zep cleaning, my company's sister company.. da leadership in tiz place is fucked.. there's tiz quote 'When a fish rots, it starts from da head', so when an organisation goes fucked it starts from da head/leaders... da Managing Director in da company is fucked.. he dont seem to noe watz going on, very fucking poor n lousy leadership... he dont seem to noe wat he's workers are doing either.... i dunno wether he even noe dat tiz week, me n nik suppose to be in TP to do shopping cart.. he dont over see da running of consigments, or noe dat how much he's paying us... he's t-shirts are not selling, da quality is fucked as well... tiz dude, we call him, Encik Rahim runs da show... da MD is suppose to be an entrepreneur, but he's not his own boss.. he's still earning from tiz chinese dude called Neo.. he's da big boss... i dunno how da fuck my MD got dat young entreprenuer of da year award... he buys (in fact he havent paid these designers as well) t-shrts designs from student designers, n tell dat Neo guy dat he came up wit tiz designs... i dunno watz going on.. no wonder da whole sghiphop crew left tiz place.. i requested to do attachment here, tinking dat i'll be working wit them... but its my misfortune dat they left before i could work wit them.... so i'm working for a dude dat dunno how to run a company n all he does is steal ppl's ideas.. datz bout it.... waddahell...

Da only good part bout tiz company is dat all my collugues here are cool as shit!! from da office ppl, to da cleaners, to da movers n truck drivers, all memberz wit us... all fucking cool... haha.. n da interns too!! all gerek!!... haha.. datz da only nice thing bout tiz place.. n when i leave tiz place, tiz is da only thing i'm gonna miss badly... i tink tiz is a success coz da permanent staff here are all guyz... datz y its cool.... u got lesser bitching here n there.. ppl talking behind each others back.. lesser ppl throwng tantrums... i mean, i've worked wit organisations where its all male.. n i've worked wit organisations where tiz a mix or all girls, its gonna alot of bitching here n there.... u can se it fo yoself... guyz or girls, go evaluate yo working environment... if u get a female dominted organisation, its da worse... so much bitching.... n ppl going... "I dun like her, she's such a bitch.. .so irritating...." or ppl going, "she tinks she's so great dating dat guy.... "... n u gonna see them gather together n bitch about sumbody... n going.. "oh really? she's like dat??.. damn, i noe she's a bitch but didnt noe she's capable of doing dat??"..... i'm not blaming any girl or shit like dat.. its juz da way god created all of em anyway... there are times when u need a girl ard... there times when u juz dun need girls.... anyway, there are guyz who are bitches too... i shall talk bout dat sum other time...

btw, Hip Hop Fest, da performance was good... in fact power ah!!... but i tink overall, da event wasnt dat successful.... da location sucked.. its all so muddy.... they ended too late, dat i have to leave so dat i wont miss da last train.. so i didnt get to watch BFC, Trivalation, Bonafide n Fique.... da timing was poor ah... da location sucked... n baby girl was being such a bitch dat day... but its all good i still love her... so its juz a sad thing.. i was looking forward to dat day but... it went kindda bad.... but da otehr performeances was bomb ah...

yea datz bout it... Peace Out!! ;)

in da office

2004-12-07T11:20:00.000+08:00

Me in da office now.. kindda bored.. my collegues are either blog hopping or updating their internship journal... haha.. we were juz remeniscing over da time we spent cleaning condos.. kelzkelz experienced maggots dat was floodign out of da toilet bowl, and they had to clean dat up.. fucking gross!!! haha.. its all good.. i'm working wit a fun bunch of ppl.. anyway, i tink da way Dila made fun of nik as 'Mr Wonderful' is rather impactful on nik ah.. haha.. looks kindda bad.. nik said "U goin down bitch!!".. haha.. funny as hell... Baby girl's swim coach asked her to join his swim training today... but she's too tired baby girl been training hard past few dayz... yesterday her best timing for 10 laps (1km) is 4 mins 42 secs... to me, datz FUCKING FAST!!.. yea, but its not her personal best tho.. she's still working on it.. i told her too do a very light swim tiz evening.. so she wont tire out.. on a different note, dad is going fo sum interview at MUIS today.. hopefully he could secure a job there... den it'll be better fo us... yeap datz bout it.. oh yea!! btw, HIP HOP FEST is tiz SATURDAY at HONG LIM PARK!!! i bought 2 tix from Fidah, gonna pay her by today ah... yeap..

My New No. is 96466696, plz update. Thank You. Peace out!!

96466696

2004-12-04T19:44:00.000+08:00

Juz wanna inform da whole world dat i'm using back my old line.. My New No. is 96466696.. yeap... i'm so happy dat Fique Bonafide won SG idol.... he deserve it ah.... haha.. All da way man.... represent... haha... anyway, me and B juz celebrated our 8th monthversary.. Farhan n Baby, 'Till da end of Tyme'.... she bought me da Linkin Park/Jay-Z collabo album... its cool as shit... THANKS BABY!!! hehe.. It seems dat everybody is juz having sum strain on they relationships... got a few peeps juz broke up... u noe, da normal deal... n Shairul got a gf but neva tell me!!! rabak sak member..... haiz.... haha... yeap.. my attachement company been making me clean condos and and become movers and i'm suppose to be a marketing intern... wtf???.. but its all good ah... da only problem is dat da pay is crap ah.... i dun mind da hard labour... c'mon, i was made fo hard living... juz dat make sure u pay me da rite price ah... dun pay me crap.. yeap... cant wait for attaachemnt to end... but i tink i'm gonna miss my collegues ah... they're a fun and nonsensical bunch ah... haha.. but i learn alot ah... initially i tot highly of da boss... den i realise dat he is juz a figure head... he's on sum guy's dick... i tot he was independent ah.... started his own shit from scratch... making zeros into millions... but dat wasnt da case... all his shit belongs to sumone else ah.... i'll pray i wont end up like dat.... i wanna be rich and ride on my own dick... i start my own shit from a scratch ah... but its all good.. ppl do all sort of shit juz to get da dough.... yeap... datz bout it... Peace out!!

Destny's Child - Soldier

2004-12-01T10:54:00.000+08:00

Tonite is SG Idol finals... i hope Fique would win it.. anyway again i wanna tell everybody dat i lost my fone so i'm currently uncontacteble ah....

Hey tiz one's fo all da real souljaz and all da ladiez who are feeling tiz one. u noe, sum girl's have pussy emotional 'bunga' boyfrenz. suka merajok n shit like dat.. haha.. i feel u girl.. So tiz one's fo them. haha. anyway, tiz is da lyrics to da video dat i'm streaming to my blog. haha yeap!.. "Baby, U got yoself a Soulja!!"... Peace out!!! ;)

Title: Soldier
Artist: Destiny's Child
Album: Destiny Fullfilled

1st Rap: T.I (DC)]
Hey(I want a Soldier!)The way you got it, I'm the hottest around
They'll know it when they see you rollin' impala's around
(I got a Soldier!)Wit the top down feeling the sounds
Quakin' and vibratin' your thighs ridin' harder than guys
Wit the chrome wheels at the bottom, white leather inside
When them lames be spittin' at you tell 'em don't even try it
To shot it wit Chelle and kick it wit Kelly or holla at BY
a, gotta be g's you way outta your league
Please!

[First Verse: Kelly (DC)]
We like dem boys that be in them lac's leanin' {Leanin'}
Open their mouth their grill gleamin' {Gleamin'}
Candy paint, keep that whip clean and {Clean and}
(They always be talkin that country slang, we like)
They keep that beat that be in the back beatin' {Beatin'}
Eyes be so low from there chief {chief and}
I love how he keep my body screamin' {Screamin'}
A rude boy that's good to me, wit street credibility

[Hook: DC]
If his status ain't hood
I ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he lookin' at me
I need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Known to carry big things If you know what I mean
If his status ain't hood
I ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he looking at me
I need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Gotta know to get dough
And he betta be street

[Second Verse: Beyonce (DC)]
We like dem boys up top from the BK {BK}
Know how to flip that money three ways {Three ways}
Always ridin' big on the freeway {Freeway}
(Wit that east coast slang that us country girls be like)
Low cut -- wit the deep waves {deep waves}
So quick to snatch up your Beyonce {Beyonce}
Always comin down poppin our way {Our way}
(Tellin us that country girls the kinda girl they like)

[Hook: DC]
If his status ain't hood
I ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he lookin' at me
I need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Known to carry big things If you know what I mean
If his status ain't hoodI ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he looking at meI need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Gotta know to get dough
And he betta be street

[Bridge: Beyonce (DC):]
I know some soldiers in here (Where they at, where they at)
They wanna take care of me (Where they at)
I know some soldiers in here (Where they at, where they at)
Don't mind takin one for me (Where they at)
I know some soldiers in here (Where they at, where they at)
They wanna spend that on me (Where they at)
I know some soldiers in here (Where they at, where they at)
Wouldn't mind puttin that on me (Where they at)

[2nd Rap: Lil Wayne]
Hey, see cash money is a army
I'm walkin' wit purple hearts on me
You talkin' to the sargeant
Body marked up like the subway in harlem
Call him, weezy f baby, please say the baby
If you don't see me on the block I ain't tryna hide
I blend in wit the hood, i'm camouflage
Bandana tied, so mommy join my troop
Now every time she hear my name she so ..umf:

[Verse 3: Michelle (DC)]
I like dem boys over there they lookin' strong tonight {Strong tonight}
Just might give one the phone tonight {Phone tonight}
Homey in the dickies in my zone tonight {Zone tonight}
He don't know it might be on tonight {On tonight}
Ooh he lookin' good and he talkin' right {Talkin' right}
He the type that might change my life {Change my life}
Everytime he look at me my girls be like {Girls be like}
(That one may be the one tonight)

[Hook: DC]
If his status ain't hood
I ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he lookin' at meI need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Known to carry big things If you know what I mean
If his status ain't hoodI ain't checkin' for him
Betta be street if he looking at meI need a soldier
That ain't scared to stand up for me
Gotta know to get dough
And he betta be street

[Bridge: Beyonce (DC):]
I know some soldiers in here (Where they at, where they at)
They wanna take care of me (Where they at)
I know some soldiers in here (Where they at, where they at)
Wouldn't mind puttin that on me (Where they at)

watz wrong wit u?

2004-11-30T01:47:00.000+08:00

watz wrong wit u?.. Y u wanna find fault wit me over nothing?.. we talked bout it da other day, and we got it settled wat... u noe i'm tired, i'm juz not in da mood fo tiz kindda shit.. u want me to see u home from work, i came eventho i'm tired.. rushed home den rush out again... eventho was doing hard labour da whole day.. juz to see u.. burn $15 juz to see u... den when i finally get to see u, u wanna find fault wit me... watz wrong wit u? is sumtin amiss? if there is, den plz talk to me bout it.. i love da CD dat u bought me.. but y spoil da nyte wit tiz kindda shit?... yea its fun fo u.. i'm sure its much more 'fun' fo me.. i'm juz tired.. i dunno if u feel me.. ah, fuck it.. it doesnt matter anyway.. nothing new....

btw to da other ppl.. i'm uncontactable fo da moment.. I LOST MY FONE... haha.. dat 2100 was one tough bitch.. rest in peace girl... ;) now got a stronger reason to get a new fone...

da struggle neva stops...

2004-11-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

Today sumhow baby girl's biopsy was called off... so it didnt happen... but i juz hope everything will be alrite.. i'm worried bout da outcome honestly... anyway, we had a major major arguement juz now... we argue alot, but juz now was a major one to me... but it dont matter its all good... we worked it out... fo da moment, at least... anyway, i had sum problems wit G-Phlex, regarding da beat dat i bought... coz those mofoz turned out to have copied da tune from sumwhere.. so i got my refund back... so we're cool now..... waddahell...

thank god i havent started performing wit dat track, i mean i'll fucking get dissed fo dat... but like i alwayz said b4.. "when u are real, God will protect u"... i mean when u are real, when ur honest, when u do things straight from heart, God will watch watch over u.... nobody can trick u or try play u out or shit like dat... let it be bizness, frenz and esp relationships... sumhow da truth will come out, when u are real.. its juz a matter of time... u dun need to intrude da other person's privacy or shit like dat... da truth will come to u... fo me, sumtimes its my gut feeling talking.. sumtimes its by accident.. sumtimes da guilty party juz have to confess... haha.. datz alwayz da bomb... its all good... ;)

anyway i dunno.. dad seems to have sum lawyer letters.. if shit going wrong, he's gonna be declared a bankrupt.... now dat sucks... gotta work sumtin out already.. damned.. i'm on my own now... gonna write a song bout tiz as soon as i finish creating da beat...

a few events are coming up.. gigs n stuff really looking fwd to dat... btw, SG Idol finals are coming soon.. I'ma vote fo Fique Bonafide.. coz sly, da muthafuka cant even sing!!.. datz an undeniable fact.... Fique been consistently impressing ppl wit his performance.. was expecting, Fique n Olinda to be final 2.. den u will get a real fight... Coz Sly is nowhere near Fique's level ah.... Fique shud be able to beat Sly hands down ah... Let's hope dat Fique juz do wat he's been doing fo da pest few performances... n datz enuf to beat Sly flat lah ah...

I juz bought Eminem's Encore album.. shit sounds good.. havent listen to da whole stuff yet.. but will do so soon.. been busy ah... lol.. yea datz bout it... Peace Out!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;)

2004-11-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

juz doing their thing..

2004-11-22T19:44:00.000+08:00

Now juz chilling... Fuck da police.. haha.. thank God no residents complain.. ;)

2004-11-22T01:31:00.000+08:00

All wanna step garang.. haha.. i'm at da other corner.. lol.. nite action... yeap, fo those who dunno me, juz like da rest of my clique, we thrive on action and adventure... Tiz is my NCC CLT clique.. NCC Cadet Liuetenants, we're juz into tiz kindda shit.. its all good..

2004-11-22T01:30:00.000+08:00

Zek in action.. yeap datz our friendly singapore neighbourhood spiderman.. lol.. 'Parkour' is a sport dat leaps and climb from structures to structures... I'm still new to da shit... but its all good.. i'm loving it ;)

2004-11-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

My first Parkour at one of Simei multi storey carpark.. lol.. tiz was b4 i arrive...

Hari Raya Day

2004-11-21T11:58:00.000+08:00

Its been a quite sum time since i updated my blog.. so here are sum stuff i wanna put up here...
Few dayz b4 Raya
Brougth baby girl out, she was all preety and cute.. hehe.. da new lenses, da outfit n da hair-do.. lol... went to watch bride and prejudice early in da morning at TM.. Aishwarya Rai was HOTT!!!! haha.. she put on a bit more weight but still hot!!.. Former Ms Universe wat.. ok lah well deserved title... den we went to watch Winnie Da Pooh Live at Expo... In between dat, we had a big argument, but we managed to sort it out sumhow... den we went simei to break fast wit my NCC Clique.. me n baby girl bumped into Nurul... She was in a rush... den met da clique... it was a nice reunion wit fida, zek n da rest.. yati joined us much later... after breaking fast at banquet, we went to Parkour at da multi storey carpark in da area.. it was my first time doing it.. leaping from diff floors and climbing n etc.. haha.. it was fun... gonna do more of dat ah.. ;) so after all dat, me and B took da train to chi garden, to sent her home... den it was back to Tampines... Reached home ard midnite.. Long distance relationship ah.. haha.. but its all good, i'm now used to take long train rides.. anything fo u baby girl ;) its time like tiz dat i wished i got personal transport.... but its all good..

13 Nov - Hari Raya Eve
I got home when its almost buker time.. so i break my fast wit my fam.. while breaking fast, takbir was on da radio... feeling ah... den did maghrib prayers, after which my dad led da takbir... den da rest of my fam follow... den da mood sets in.. my lil sis, switched on da 'lampu kelap kelip' (aka running lights).. den i got dressed up and went downstairs to da multi purpose hall beside my block... its beside da playground, da place where ppl do malay weddings ah... brought sum food from home as 'jamuan', den takbir together wit almost all da muslim males in da hood... all of us was assemble there... it was a great feeling of unity ah... juz kicked in da mood, everybody was happy n shit.. den i was receiving sms from so many diff ppl wishing hari raya wishes... after dat i was back at home cleaning up my room, ironing my clothes, perfecting da beat dat i bought from G-Phlex, talking to baby girl on da fone, all of it at da same time... haha... multi-tasking ah...

14 nov - Hari Raya Day
I was late to da mosque.. took a cab there.. dad left earlier, coz i was late.. lol... den i had to pray on da 'kembes' outside da mosque, and it was wet coz it was raining da night b4.. so all my baju kurung pants were all wet ah.. went home n had to get it fixed... waited fo dad to come back from mosque n my sisters getting dressed, i was still on da comp perfecting da beat.. den dad came back, we had breakfast... n did da 'maaf-maafan' session... touching ah... all of em cried except fo me and ija... yea.. den after all dat we left fo opah's house at bedok resevoir... met everybody there.. all da lil cuzzinz n stuff.. everybody was in a happy mode.. did sum 'maaf-maafan' session too.. ppl cry n shit... touching ah from opah and atok (grandma n grandad)... dat one got me a bit.. but i keep it cool tho... still no tears.. den we all set off fo mak mah's hse at bukit batok... she's from my dad's side... Cik mus lend his Jaguar S-type to dad so we drove there... dat car is so comfy inside.. anyway Dad isnt driving anymore, our car got taken away lah coz didnt pay da instalment fo a few mths... den over at mak mah's crib met up my cuzinz there.. Khairi is doin ok as usual... Abang man still riding his scrambler.. his single now.. lol.. dun wanna commit he says.. haha.. he's enlisting to SCDF next mth.. All da best!!.. den i saw shahrul's fam.. saw his new baby wit his wife... da baby looked so small.. n yea he's wife is hot.. but i dunno.. not my kindda girl tho... i heard he's doin 2 jobs now trying to support his family... c'mon, da dude is only 20 and not yet done NS... but he's keeping it cool... but didnt get to talk to him much tho.. den after all dat.. my fam went back to opah's house to return cik mus' car and we made our way home...

So roughly datz wat happened during hari raya lah.. yea.. datz bout it... Peace out!!

Academic Warning

2004-11-13T05:54:00.000+08:00

Yeap, supp paper results are out, i failed both of da shit... So, i'll be doing an extra sem and wont get to graduate wit da rest of my cohort.. its all good.. i'm on Academic Warning now... haha... was on Academic Probation like 2 semesters ago... damn, i juz suck at skool... juz not my thing... kindda sad actually, coz i wanna get out of da education system asap.... but its all good, at least denise n nik cleared their supp paper.. haha.. nik, told ya not to forgo da supp paper!! haha.. yeap..

Btw, Hari Raya is coming!.. haha.. it'll be a great reunion wit all my cuzzins and relatives n shit... its all good.. Wishing all muslims, world wide Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin... Kalau ade salah silap mintak maaf.. c'mon everybody makes mistakes... yeap... on a different note altogether, Mr Yasser Arafat juz passed away like 2 dayz ago.. Rest in Peace, da dude been fighting all his life.. so now he's been put to sleep already... 21-Gun Salute.. God bless his Soul.. Bless da palestinians too...

N oh yea, i've been working on da beat dat i bought from G-Phlex.. doin sum modifications to my taste... i still havent tink of a title to tiz track.. lol... and dun forget to buy my T-Shirts!!!.. haha... i'm still at www.fyewerkz.com/fashionjooze.htm... yea Peace out!..

2004-11-09T20:53:00.000+08:00

Its me Farhan42.. Currently doin my final yr in Dip in Marketing at TP Biz Skool... I suck at skool.. I hate skool... on n off probation, supp paper, extra sem n so on... lol... but its all good.. I've been making sum music.. love Rap Hip Hop.. I do sports n shit... action freak... haha.. i juz started tiz blog shit.. yea.. if u happened to see me.. link me up alrite.. . Peace out!! ;)

sumtin like tiz

2004-11-09T00:26:00.001+08:00

Ok ppl!!.. i juz figure out sum shit... not bad ah.. over night shit.. haha... tag board is up.. my info is roughly there.. manage to even stream my mp3 instrumental..... i took sum lay out... change da pic, n put my nasty logo.. it was created by Missymas, i tink sumwhere last yr using buble graf.. lol.. i asked her to do it ah back den... its all good... i'll improvise tiz shit as i go along... peace out!...

So how do you start.. erm.. .

2004-11-05T10:58:00.000+08:00

test test test..... hmm..